When God says No

Today isn't the best day, I am on CD 14 and Clear Blue Easy Says low fertility.
That's ok, I know I am not ovulating, no cervical mucus either.

I tried to talk to Henry about our options, drugs, adoption, or just understanding and just having Layna and being happy we have Layna.

He doesn't want to do fertility drugs, doesn't want to adopt, so now I am saying Ok maybe this is God's way of saying no to another child. If so I am still going to love God and worship God.... I am going to pray for this marriage and to not resent my husband for leaving Layna alone in the world without a sibling, I went through that so I know that story.

Its ok, you know. God is correct I will hold on to that.

Keda