Ok its been nine days.

Ok so it has been nine days. There has been so much going on that I honestly have not had a chance to get back to this blog.

Let me start by giving you my vitals.

Blood pressure still 120/79
I weight 220lbs if you have been keeping track that is a weight loss of 14lbs, when i began this journey I weight 234lbs. So I am ok with that weight loss, my next goal is to get to 210lbs.
I am still walking and working out, although this week not as frequently. Reason being is my mom's car is still broke so she is using our car and me and the Hubbin are carpooling, yeah so getting to the gym and back in time to pick up the lil from daycare isn't   as much. So what is my fix to that. I have been walking in the neighborhood, these hills have been doing the job some but i miss the the treadmill.

Now lets get down to my cycle, after my last post my cycle came on its on the very next day, right at 25,  while that isn't a perfect 28 days, I am still thrilled. Glory be to God my cycle came on its own. Right now I am watching my CM and I was temping but that was off because I have been sick so this month won't be as reliable as last month temp wise.

I am scheduled to ovulate on the 16th, with a fertility appointment on the 22nd, first I could get. I just pray we conceive this month naturally on our own. I don't want to start with all this fertility crap again.

Now lets talk food. I have been a Atkins, mostly Paleo girl since our last talk. I slipped up once and ate out at a restaurant, still low carb there though. I am tired of dieting at this point, but I am believing God so deeply for our daughter that its like who cares, pass the salad, the salmon, the chicken, the veggies... Cause that is basically my diet, eggs, salad, salmons, chicken, steak, veggies etc. Because I wasn't losing that much weight till I started limiting carbs my diet became even more restricted. That is ok with me though you know, as long as the weight keeps coming off slow and steady.

As far as meds go I have been taking my levothyroxine, folic acid, iron, calcium pills. I was thinking of taking Vitex, but i am so scared of taking anything not prescribed. I just am prayerful that through diet and exercise I will be able to get pregnant. We pray, meaning hubbin and I pray daily for Amaya.

Mental self, I am not as sad anymore primarily because I have been getting my praise on on on. I praise God on the way to work, I have my scriptures together and praise and pray at work. I pray and praise a lot, some days are better than others but I have made a decision to pray and praise God and still believe whatever the result He is CORRECT.

Plus whenever I take a moment to reflect on my life, not focus on fertility,  I realize I have an awesome life. I have a man I adore, a daughter who God blessed us with, a job I love, I am just blessed, so this season/test whatever you want to call it. Well, the Lord is still present, and he is going to move for us in his time. I am just trying to prepare myself. I mean after all it was me who got this big. See there it is the hard part. I am the one who gained the weight but I swear, I can gain weight like nobody's business even with regular exercise I still need to 'really' watch what I eat. Right now this diet and this lifestyle change of constantly cooking and being really conscious of what I cook wasn't enough, I had to decrease my carbs to a level below a typical south beach diet.... that's hard...But I want to give us a chance, I want to give my next child a chance.


That is all for now. See ya soon.

Keda