I am moving on. This post is no longer going to be about fertility. This post is instead going to be about me losing weight for me and for the one's the Lord has blessed me with already. Tonight I was looking around my house and have seen how the house has become a home over the last four years. I see the man sleeping in bed with me, he is my hubby and more than that he is my friend. I forgive him and me for letting fertility take over our lives and our marriage. I am working on actively forgiving him every day and every time I think about it for not wanting to adopt.
Instead, I choose to think of all the times he has forgiven me for this or that, and I remember that that is what marriage is about forgiveness and love and being happy in the good times...These are good times, but sadly for a long while now at least a year I have chosen not to focus on the good but on what I thought would be the 'completion' of our family. Our family is complete, and that chapter of my life is over......
I choose to move on..........I choose to heal and let it be ok. I choose to say thank you Jesus for your love and your many blessings and the child you have already given us. I choose to raise her to the best of my ability to be a God fearing woman. I choose not to continue to mourn, and grieve which is what i was doing......
That is all for today.
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