So I haven't posted in a long time.
Two Words....Sleep Deprivation!
Alexander loves and I do mean loves to keep up the schedule he formed in the womb. Which means he sleeps all the morning till mid afternoon, wakes up to entertain us around 2pm, then goes to sleep only to wake in very short intervals throughout the early evening. Oh but wait to 9pm at night comes, he is up active, lively cooing and or crying whichever suits him at the moment.
Between bottles and gas bubbles in his little tummy I don't know if I am coming or going. But I just remind myself, that hey two more weeks and we can start the process of sleep training. Whew let the days and nights get flipped back the right way.
In addition to sleep deprivation, the last few days/week or so I have been dealing with this wound vac. It is seriously effective but from a mental standpoint I felt fragile. I mean here I am with this machine and tubing hanging off me down to my toes, having to drag it around with me 24 hours a day, it was discouraging. Baby blues wanted to set in but I said the hell with that and called my nurse and asked if I could go outside for short walks. She said yes but just take it easy, no 'exercise' worthy walking is how I took that. OMG the sun was wonderful it renewed me and made me feel like okay this sucks but not completely. And now after following all or most of the nurses rules I am wound vac free, down to wet/dry compresses and only having to see the nurse two days a week instead of three. And now she is here 15/20 min instead of 30 minutes to an hour and a half. God is great, I prayed for supernatural healing and there he is.
Sunday, June 22, 2014
Thursday, June 5, 2014
Victory, A Caesarean section and aftermath
He's here, He's here. Alexander Emerson Wheat has arrived. 9lbs 2 oz and 22 inches long. We are so happy so thrilled to have this lil man, who was born by caesarean on the 22nd.
I went in on the 21st to be induced at 41 weeks and 3 days, labored for 24 hours and our Alex still would not line up with the birth canal. The hubbin and I were exhausted. We had beena in constant prayer the whole time, and we were at the decision making point. So when the Dr. announced that Alex simply was not going to come on down and a caesarean would be neccesary, although hubby was a somewhat afraid for me, we both agreed I and Alex had given it our best.
The hardest part of the whole ordeal was prepping for surgery, then being laid down flat angel style on my back and waiting for it all to begin, but before I could ask if they had started yet, they were showing me over the veil a beautiful brown baby who was screaming his head off. Hubbin was smiling and trying to get me to focus my eyes. I was breathing big sighs of relief, he was here. My spirit was shouting thank you thank you thank you.
Alex, sigh Alex is the most beautiful handsome little boy we have ever laid our eyes on. I am ecstatic that he looks just like his daddy, since I think my hubby is quit handsome. All I do is kiss his lil fat rolls and his cheeks. When everyone is home and in bed and invariably watching Care Bears cause that is Layna's thing now, I marvel at the goodness of God. All I ever wanted was a family and here they are. God is good.
Now the aftermath
I didn't heal right, developed a hematoma,a blood clot, my incision also opened up just a bit and I had a tunnel which is basically another part of the wound that didn't close right. As a result, I am now on antibiotics to keep off infection. I have a home health nurse who came and attached wound vac inside my wound to help me heal from the inside out. I have to wear the contraption for 6-8 weeks or maybe 4-6 on the low end.
No driving and no fun summer trips. Which the last part there really sucks I wanted hubby and Layna to have fun wife/mama back and to do stuff. Sigh....I can't even drive or clean or pick up Layna or Alex for that matter. I tried to get back to my routine, result, wound vac detached had to call nurse out early. When she learned I had given Layna a bath she fussed for a solid 20 minutes, and reiterated i was to do nothing if i wanted to heal. She told my aunt and family the same thing and before she left she said and i quote "respect the wound, I mean you have a hole in your stomach"--that caught my attention. So I have been resting, and trying not to go out of my mind thinking of the millionth thing I wanted and had planned to do this summer for the family and the hubby and Layna and the house. Only great spot is that I am so tuned in to Alex during the day. But I immediately wish I could have Layna here during the day too, and I consciously turn away from feeling guilty about that. So weekends are Layna days with mama.
I don't really care about the set back. I will heal from this because God is a healer. I will bounce back from this better than ever. I am so happy and grateful I don't know what to do. God is good and his mercy lasts forever and ever.
Psalms 30:2
O LORD my God, I called to you for help and you healed me.
I went in on the 21st to be induced at 41 weeks and 3 days, labored for 24 hours and our Alex still would not line up with the birth canal. The hubbin and I were exhausted. We had beena in constant prayer the whole time, and we were at the decision making point. So when the Dr. announced that Alex simply was not going to come on down and a caesarean would be neccesary, although hubby was a somewhat afraid for me, we both agreed I and Alex had given it our best.
The hardest part of the whole ordeal was prepping for surgery, then being laid down flat angel style on my back and waiting for it all to begin, but before I could ask if they had started yet, they were showing me over the veil a beautiful brown baby who was screaming his head off. Hubbin was smiling and trying to get me to focus my eyes. I was breathing big sighs of relief, he was here. My spirit was shouting thank you thank you thank you.
Alex, sigh Alex is the most beautiful handsome little boy we have ever laid our eyes on. I am ecstatic that he looks just like his daddy, since I think my hubby is quit handsome. All I do is kiss his lil fat rolls and his cheeks. When everyone is home and in bed and invariably watching Care Bears cause that is Layna's thing now, I marvel at the goodness of God. All I ever wanted was a family and here they are. God is good.
Now the aftermath
I didn't heal right, developed a hematoma,a blood clot, my incision also opened up just a bit and I had a tunnel which is basically another part of the wound that didn't close right. As a result, I am now on antibiotics to keep off infection. I have a home health nurse who came and attached wound vac inside my wound to help me heal from the inside out. I have to wear the contraption for 6-8 weeks or maybe 4-6 on the low end.
No driving and no fun summer trips. Which the last part there really sucks I wanted hubby and Layna to have fun wife/mama back and to do stuff. Sigh....I can't even drive or clean or pick up Layna or Alex for that matter. I tried to get back to my routine, result, wound vac detached had to call nurse out early. When she learned I had given Layna a bath she fussed for a solid 20 minutes, and reiterated i was to do nothing if i wanted to heal. She told my aunt and family the same thing and before she left she said and i quote "respect the wound, I mean you have a hole in your stomach"--that caught my attention. So I have been resting, and trying not to go out of my mind thinking of the millionth thing I wanted and had planned to do this summer for the family and the hubby and Layna and the house. Only great spot is that I am so tuned in to Alex during the day. But I immediately wish I could have Layna here during the day too, and I consciously turn away from feeling guilty about that. So weekends are Layna days with mama.
I don't really care about the set back. I will heal from this because God is a healer. I will bounce back from this better than ever. I am so happy and grateful I don't know what to do. God is good and his mercy lasts forever and ever.
Psalms 30:2
O LORD my God, I called to you for help and you healed me.
Sunday, May 18, 2014
Sermon - On Time God
Today I went to church. First off let me say that we are regular attendees but the last few weeks I have just not been up going physically.
Man let me tell you the stress that I was under, the body tiredness and all of that that both hubbin and I were feeling was on us. I was struggling to keep my attitude cheery and not letting the strain show through. I was losing that battle.
Sleep evades me at night, and with the BP issues and just everything in between by the time Sunday gets here I am just fatigued. But this morning I woke up wanting to go to the house of the Lord. I needed to get our family back into the house of the Lord. That was my thought. Not that I needed a word, just that hey Team Wheatie spends time with the Lord worshipping and learning..... So we went to church.
Man let me tell you the stress that I was under, the body tiredness and all of that that both hubbin and I were feeling was on us. I was struggling to keep my attitude cheery and not letting the strain show through. I was losing that battle.
Friday hubbin and I discussed the c-section and he said finally he did not agree but would support. Which is not our way, hubbin and I are always like 99% of the time on the same page, but I was so scared I was like okay if he consents then that isn't really rebellion. So i called the dr and said we have decided to schedule a elective c-section. Dr calls back and says ummm no that is not an option you have right now, goes on to explain that we need to stick to the plan check the baby on Monday and see if a csection is best course of action, but as for right now we don't want to go that drastic. Hubby was in the background nodding his head. I of course was frustrated! Big sis calls and says Keda be still, vaginal is best unless otherwise stated.
So why was I frustrated, well two reasons. One I felt like okay csection, would be less stressful than birth, dr dispelled that in his discussion, and two, i was scared cause Alex was so high. Like I told Dr, it isn't about me being frustrated with still being pregnant, and having to still be uncomfortable/ I just love my baby. and my MIND, Lord Lord Keda's mind is a problem solving mind. My mind is like well if a csection is a possible third option, lets just cut me and get my baby out and put him in my arms so that I can love him and take care of him and protect him even more. To me going the drastic route with surgery (drastic for the woman) was the best course of action, cause I am not worried about me. My mind my heart is focused on Alex.
I am the type of person I entertain very little fear, not scared of life in any sense, not scared of death or this thing or that thing etc, I feel like, hey I know Jesus, so its whatever, Ohhh but when it comes to my family, my husband, my children.... I am the first to holler chicken, give it all away to make them safe.
Hubbin puts it this way, I have no real deep regard for my own personal safety. He doesn't say this to say I am reckless, no that is not it at all. He says that because I am more prone to look out for them than me. He says it is his job to look out for me. I suppose so, cause I think it is my personal mission to look out for him and the kids. They cough wrong, I'm like what's that, where is the cough syrup, call the pediatrician. Yes I am that mama. Flu season comes, I have everybody in the house taking vitamin C and echinacea. So you seeing going into major surgery electively for my child is not a big stretch for me. But when the Dr advised that more c section babies end up in the NICU than vaginally born and that instead of going that route we should keep to the plan and that he would be watching baby closely and doing what is right for baby regardless, I calmed down.
I calmed down because obviously at that moment, when I am running around in fear and not faith, God said 'let me stop this girl.'
The "no" was stressful, I cried and then I prayed. Which leads me to today Sunday. Got up at 4am prayed and then later on we went to church.
Our pastor preached from the book of James on Trials and Temptations. He quoted some of my favorite scriptures on Trials, many of which are in this blog. But what really blessed my spirit was at the end Pastor Chris said, "I know you are exhausted, but if you would just keep going pressing forward, you will receive all God has for you'...
That touched me so cause I am exhausted in my spirit, but here I stand Lord, believing you for Alexander's very life. Thanking you for this child born happy healthy and whole. When the devil attacks my mind with fears out of my mouth I speak God's blessing over Alex. When I can't sleep I pray, when it is quiet I pray. Not just for Alex, but for my noble Hubbin who is tired to, for my Layna who needs her mama back to be her play mate. i am constantly in a some kind of prayer.
But this I know God is able, and Alex will be born happy and healthy and whole and alive with all of his functions intact. The labor and delivery will be smooth and I will give God all the glory for it.
Battle Cry for Today:
Isaiah 55:11 NIV
so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it
Thursday, May 15, 2014
C-Section
40 weeks and a two days,
Genera mood, emotionally exhausted
Body -> extremely exhausted, sleep is not my friend.
I can't sleep at night, my back aches if i lie straight, pillows are not helping that much. I go from the couch to the bed to the couch and back again.
Alex is not engaged in the pelvis, he is still really high. Has mama scared to the point I want to run right out of my skin. Dr has told me to wait it out over the weekend. Sonogram on Monday, possibility of C-Section. I am scared to the point I don't know what to do.
My nerves are on edge to the point I can't stand the wind changing, my hair hitting my face. Nothing....So of course I am quiet and praying. Praying constantly for the life of my child. People do not understand so there is no need to talk to people.
I am unnerved and in need of the Lord, so i politely cut off my phone. In my mind I am in one spot and that is kneeling at the throne praying for my child. Constantly praying for him. I will not give up my faith, I will not stop praising God for his very life. Instead I rebuke Satan off of this situation and will hunker down with the Lord. I am tired in my spirit this particular battle from beginning to end has been a lot. But just like Layna I will keep battling for Alex, going to God in the spirit.
Praise God for his very life.
Battle Cry:
God is able. Now faith is the substance of things hoped for the evidence of things not seen.
Genera mood, emotionally exhausted
Body -> extremely exhausted, sleep is not my friend.
I can't sleep at night, my back aches if i lie straight, pillows are not helping that much. I go from the couch to the bed to the couch and back again.
Alex is not engaged in the pelvis, he is still really high. Has mama scared to the point I want to run right out of my skin. Dr has told me to wait it out over the weekend. Sonogram on Monday, possibility of C-Section. I am scared to the point I don't know what to do.
My nerves are on edge to the point I can't stand the wind changing, my hair hitting my face. Nothing....So of course I am quiet and praying. Praying constantly for the life of my child. People do not understand so there is no need to talk to people.
I am unnerved and in need of the Lord, so i politely cut off my phone. In my mind I am in one spot and that is kneeling at the throne praying for my child. Constantly praying for him. I will not give up my faith, I will not stop praising God for his very life. Instead I rebuke Satan off of this situation and will hunker down with the Lord. I am tired in my spirit this particular battle from beginning to end has been a lot. But just like Layna I will keep battling for Alex, going to God in the spirit.
Praise God for his very life.
Battle Cry:
God is able. Now faith is the substance of things hoped for the evidence of things not seen.
Sunday, May 4, 2014
Extreme Bed Rest
38 weeks and 6 days
It has been a horrible day. Started the day with a head ache, pressure up and down all day.
Layna has whined all day long, and I don't know if it is just lack of sleep or worry or stress or counting kicks all day but the whinning has literally driven me up a wall.
I called the dr on call/nurse practitioner and gave her my information about the headaches, the pressure, heart racing, she said pressure was not too bad, but from here on out I am to be on extreme bed rest instead of modified. Meaning i only get up to pee. This worried me like none other.
For the last month or so i have had to really watch the pressure. My body is doing well, but it was like no extra nothing was going to be done. I would walk from the parking lot to the door of my office and have to stop and sit on the green chairs right inside the door to catch my breathe, sweat pouring down my face like I had run a marathon. Go to the bathroom wash my face off with cold water before I went to my desk. It was a uphill battle.
I am so tired of being tired, that is one theme of this blog.... I am always tired. I can't even cook or get the babies room together cause I am sweating and my heart is racing.Can't sweep, do laundry nothing. At this point all I literally can do it sit still. I am so frustrated with that I don't know what to do......
But I keep praying. At this point that is all i got. Believing God that the breakthrough, the birth of this happy healthy child is on the way. I hope so cause I am tired from my mind to my body, my spirit, my soul, my feet are tired.
Only a mother knows what it is to carry a child. To love them from the moment of conception. I am so stressed, i don't know if I should walk in the dr's office tomorrow and demand to be induced or if I should wait on God. Given Layna was distressed some and the cord was around her neck I am scared to be induced. I am scared to let Alex stay in the womb to long either with BP going up and down.
I am distressed and can't come to a decision which is sooo unlike me, that it is literally causing me to be unnerved. I am hoping that the decision won't be mine. That I will go into labor. I am praying to go into labor naturally, cause I am ready and I am tired. Between trying to keep my bp down, and counting kicks and numerous dr visits, and prayer and just believing God, I am exhausted. Did you know believing is a choice it is all a choice. I believe God for Alexander Emerson Wheat.
I know the breakthrough is coming cause I'm at the end of all possible strength I have. I am literally leaning on grace right now. Believing that I won't fall.
Battle Cry for today:
Psalms 46:10
Be Still and know that I am God
Isaiah 26:13
You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast because they trust in you
John 16:21-24
21 A woman giving birth to a child has pain because her time has come; but when her baby is born she forgets the anguish because of her joy that a child is born into the world. 22 So with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy. 23 In that day you will no longer ask me anything. Very truly I tell you, my Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. 24 Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete.
It has been a horrible day. Started the day with a head ache, pressure up and down all day.
Layna has whined all day long, and I don't know if it is just lack of sleep or worry or stress or counting kicks all day but the whinning has literally driven me up a wall.
I called the dr on call/nurse practitioner and gave her my information about the headaches, the pressure, heart racing, she said pressure was not too bad, but from here on out I am to be on extreme bed rest instead of modified. Meaning i only get up to pee. This worried me like none other.
For the last month or so i have had to really watch the pressure. My body is doing well, but it was like no extra nothing was going to be done. I would walk from the parking lot to the door of my office and have to stop and sit on the green chairs right inside the door to catch my breathe, sweat pouring down my face like I had run a marathon. Go to the bathroom wash my face off with cold water before I went to my desk. It was a uphill battle.
I am so tired of being tired, that is one theme of this blog.... I am always tired. I can't even cook or get the babies room together cause I am sweating and my heart is racing.Can't sweep, do laundry nothing. At this point all I literally can do it sit still. I am so frustrated with that I don't know what to do......
I AM FRUSTRATED
But I keep praying. At this point that is all i got. Believing God that the breakthrough, the birth of this happy healthy child is on the way. I hope so cause I am tired from my mind to my body, my spirit, my soul, my feet are tired.
Only a mother knows what it is to carry a child. To love them from the moment of conception. I am so stressed, i don't know if I should walk in the dr's office tomorrow and demand to be induced or if I should wait on God. Given Layna was distressed some and the cord was around her neck I am scared to be induced. I am scared to let Alex stay in the womb to long either with BP going up and down.
I am distressed and can't come to a decision which is sooo unlike me, that it is literally causing me to be unnerved. I am hoping that the decision won't be mine. That I will go into labor. I am praying to go into labor naturally, cause I am ready and I am tired. Between trying to keep my bp down, and counting kicks and numerous dr visits, and prayer and just believing God, I am exhausted. Did you know believing is a choice it is all a choice. I believe God for Alexander Emerson Wheat.
I know the breakthrough is coming cause I'm at the end of all possible strength I have. I am literally leaning on grace right now. Believing that I won't fall.
Battle Cry for today:
Psalms 46:10
Be Still and know that I am God
Isaiah 26:13
You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast because they trust in you
John 16:21-24
21 A woman giving birth to a child has pain because her time has come; but when her baby is born she forgets the anguish because of her joy that a child is born into the world. 22 So with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy. 23 In that day you will no longer ask me anything. Very truly I tell you, my Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. 24 Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete.
Thursday, May 1, 2014
4 am Prayer
38 weeks pregnant and three days
Feeling lots of pressure, think I had some contractions earlier in the day!
Lord this has been such a very long road. At this point my body is exhausted, my mind is exhausted, I am exhausted. I have been sick with this and that most of this pregnancy. I have been to the emergency room twice, bit by a spider, severe constipation, hemorrhoids to the point I could not sit on my bottom, extreme fatigue like extreme, and had blood pressure swings. But yet I rejoice because God is faithful.
He not only blessed me to conceive he has carried me and this baby to 38 weeks and a few days. I feel Alex jumping around in my body. I have and continue to wake up everyday to pray the blood over his life, over my blood pressure. I believe Alex will be born happy healthy and whole. I believe God.
Who I am has evolved so much in this journey. To the point that I can tell you who I was spiritually, and emotionally, has evolved and matured so much. I have literally seen the hand of God perform miracles in my life, in my health, and in every other aspect of my life.
Then when I felt at my lowest he used me to be encouragement in other people's lives. Dropped family, friends and even associates in my spirit during prayer time. I prayed for them, and God gave me words of encouragement for them. He has brought me and my husband closer and brought more one-ship in Christ in our marriage. Let me see even more beauty and depth of character in him than I have ever seen. The same for my beautiful Alayna. Being her mother is a joy and I go to God constantly to help me raise her, help me protect her spirit and deposit into her the things of I Christ. I pray over her and Alex and generations to come constantly. I pray for their safety, for their character, that they know Christ at an early age, that grace and favor go before them in all they do. I pray their safety, I even pray for their spouses. I cover my children and my husband in prayer daily.
I suppose this entry is just to say God is! He is faithful, and he is loving..If you seek him you will find him and in him rest for your spirit.
Battle Cry:
Mark 11:24
Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours
Feeling lots of pressure, think I had some contractions earlier in the day!
Lord this has been such a very long road. At this point my body is exhausted, my mind is exhausted, I am exhausted. I have been sick with this and that most of this pregnancy. I have been to the emergency room twice, bit by a spider, severe constipation, hemorrhoids to the point I could not sit on my bottom, extreme fatigue like extreme, and had blood pressure swings. But yet I rejoice because God is faithful.
He not only blessed me to conceive he has carried me and this baby to 38 weeks and a few days. I feel Alex jumping around in my body. I have and continue to wake up everyday to pray the blood over his life, over my blood pressure. I believe Alex will be born happy healthy and whole. I believe God.
Who I am has evolved so much in this journey. To the point that I can tell you who I was spiritually, and emotionally, has evolved and matured so much. I have literally seen the hand of God perform miracles in my life, in my health, and in every other aspect of my life.
Then when I felt at my lowest he used me to be encouragement in other people's lives. Dropped family, friends and even associates in my spirit during prayer time. I prayed for them, and God gave me words of encouragement for them. He has brought me and my husband closer and brought more one-ship in Christ in our marriage. Let me see even more beauty and depth of character in him than I have ever seen. The same for my beautiful Alayna. Being her mother is a joy and I go to God constantly to help me raise her, help me protect her spirit and deposit into her the things of I Christ. I pray over her and Alex and generations to come constantly. I pray for their safety, for their character, that they know Christ at an early age, that grace and favor go before them in all they do. I pray their safety, I even pray for their spouses. I cover my children and my husband in prayer daily.
I suppose this entry is just to say God is! He is faithful, and he is loving..If you seek him you will find him and in him rest for your spirit.
Battle Cry:
Mark 11:24
Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours
Sunday, April 27, 2014
38 Weeks - Tired
Praise God, Monday makes 38 weeks.
I am ready for this little boy to come on out. My body is exhausted, I have a sinus infection that WILL NOT go away, i need a allergy shot, and he is jumping on my bladder while his feet are kicking me in the ribs. Yes my husband is tall if you are wondering. My fist daughter was very long, kicked mama's ribs too. Lord...I just praise God for a happy healthy baby and delivery.
I love this child so much, love seeing him move in my belly. Love it when Hubbin rub the belly and kiss the belly, but the body, my body is tireeeeeddd///// Lord your servant is tired.
Still I'm holding on. Praying for him daily in the morning ,loving him all day long, and believing God for him. I can do it. I am believing God for him.
Battle Cry:
Now faith is the substance of things hoped for the evidence of things not seen! Hallelujah.
I am ready for this little boy to come on out. My body is exhausted, I have a sinus infection that WILL NOT go away, i need a allergy shot, and he is jumping on my bladder while his feet are kicking me in the ribs. Yes my husband is tall if you are wondering. My fist daughter was very long, kicked mama's ribs too. Lord...I just praise God for a happy healthy baby and delivery.
I love this child so much, love seeing him move in my belly. Love it when Hubbin rub the belly and kiss the belly, but the body, my body is tireeeeeddd///// Lord your servant is tired.
Still I'm holding on. Praying for him daily in the morning ,loving him all day long, and believing God for him. I can do it. I am believing God for him.
Battle Cry:
Now faith is the substance of things hoped for the evidence of things not seen! Hallelujah.
Wednesday, April 23, 2014
Update More Bed Rest
So i literally didn't do anything today. BP has not gone down and has not gone up. Called Dr. gave update like i was supposed to dr prolongs bed rest through tomorrow, told to keep daily appointment.
BP is 140/82 or 140/77. Praying to the Lord that Alex is born happy and healthy. Feel some pressure. not as much as this morning but like i said I have literally been lying down all day and sleep the past three hours.
Hungry, and I want Henni and Ellen
BP is 140/82 or 140/77. Praying to the Lord that Alex is born happy and healthy. Feel some pressure. not as much as this morning but like i said I have literally been lying down all day and sleep the past three hours.
Hungry, and I want Henni and Ellen
BP AND BED REST
Today I called into work, BP on the high end, pressure, but no water breaking. Dr's visit tomorrow. Nurse said chill out and put feet up today. Right now, I am tired and so desperately want Alex to come already. My body is like at the breaking point.
I have a sinus infection to end all sinus infections. I can't sleep through the night and because of all those wonderful years I spent deployed my neck and back are like through. I wake up in the morning and my whole body is a in pain from the stiffness. Henry literally unfolds me and helps me to the shower on the worst mornings. The hot water lets those muscles relax a lot.
I love this baby, so it all is soo worth it. I'm just sooo sooo ready. Nothing else much to chat on just ready. Praise God for Alex and our whole lil family.
I have a sinus infection to end all sinus infections. I can't sleep through the night and because of all those wonderful years I spent deployed my neck and back are like through. I wake up in the morning and my whole body is a in pain from the stiffness. Henry literally unfolds me and helps me to the shower on the worst mornings. The hot water lets those muscles relax a lot.
I love this baby, so it all is soo worth it. I'm just sooo sooo ready. Nothing else much to chat on just ready. Praise God for Alex and our whole lil family.
Saturday, April 19, 2014
Layna the Great, Appreciation and DenirO
I don't know if it is a general rule.
But it is like the last few weeks of pregnancy things get so unbelievably real. In the last week, every last member of this household has had a sinus infection and allergies, my mama included although she doesn't live with us.
In addition to that this morning I had a less than stellar mommy moment. Layna was sulky and I was like stop that we are going to the park and doing this and that. My mama came and got her this morning and immediately returned her she was like do ya'll realize Layna isn't feeling good she turned down food and she holding her ear.
I had the aww damn bad mama moment, i thought she just didn't get enough sleep or was dealing with allergies...I looked at her close and was like dang damn dang she doesn't feel well and she looks like she is achy immediately i was like lets go to sick call at the pediatrician. I picked her up and rocked her and kissed on her cause i felt so bad i didn't notice.
Come to find out she has a ear and sinus infection, which we thought had cleared up two weeks ago but did not. So mama kissed them cheeks and said I was sorry mama didn't notice. She smiled and clung to me like a lil koala bear and forgave mama's spidey senses for being off.
We got her to the doc, that was $25 dollars, got the medicine $58 dollars, got her home and then I cuddled her and got her meds in her, daddy carried her upstairs. Came back down was like hey Doesn't Gabby have to go to the groomer's today.....
Mama looking like huh hmmm really. So you basically telling me that with no probs whatsoever we spent over 100 plus dollars at target including meds, $25 at the doctor, and now $60 for a low cut, bath etc at the groomers.
Wowzers times a 100....Today has been one of those days where you like really. But didn't nothing really happen there are no shoe bags, clothes etc. Just incidentals and meds. I bought one misc thing at Target as a thank you gift to Hubbin for being so fabulous and loving his girls so much. He has taken care of me and Layna today while we were both snotting and sniffing, just like I took care of him when he got sick. I believe God for keeping our finances cause between dr visits for all of us, puppy dr visits, groomers, and higher utilities than seen in previous years its been one for this month.
Other than that nothing new to report on the baby front. Our love, Alex, is doing well still high up/head down and cervix is closed. Soooo whenever he is ready to make an entrance mommy is ready. Everyone is asking when I am coming home. Well considering Layna had to be induced and I only have so much FMLA time i don't want to go home to quick and end up waiting for the baby for almost a month. My plan is to work for as long as i can, probably right through the 39th week or rather maybe til the middle of it. That way I know that he only at most has two weeks he can stay in the womb before an in induction. i really want to spend the summer with Alex and Layna and Henry sooooo I will continue to soldier on through.
It is getting hard to go to work though. I am sick with allergies and fatigue in the morning. I sleep on the way to drop Hubbin off at work, drag out the car and get myself up that walkway to start my day. I am knocked out at night and on the weekends have to take breaks to nap. But as i have said 1000 times.. i would do it all again for my children, husband, family it is worth it!
The battle cry today come from the 31st Prov (The Wife of Noble Character). I have this scripture in front of me at work. I read it almost daily. But this last little bit reminds me i can do this--I can keep going--'my arms are strong for their task'...PRAISE GOD.
Battle Cry for today:
But it is like the last few weeks of pregnancy things get so unbelievably real. In the last week, every last member of this household has had a sinus infection and allergies, my mama included although she doesn't live with us.
In addition to that this morning I had a less than stellar mommy moment. Layna was sulky and I was like stop that we are going to the park and doing this and that. My mama came and got her this morning and immediately returned her she was like do ya'll realize Layna isn't feeling good she turned down food and she holding her ear.
I had the aww damn bad mama moment, i thought she just didn't get enough sleep or was dealing with allergies...I looked at her close and was like dang damn dang she doesn't feel well and she looks like she is achy immediately i was like lets go to sick call at the pediatrician. I picked her up and rocked her and kissed on her cause i felt so bad i didn't notice.
Come to find out she has a ear and sinus infection, which we thought had cleared up two weeks ago but did not. So mama kissed them cheeks and said I was sorry mama didn't notice. She smiled and clung to me like a lil koala bear and forgave mama's spidey senses for being off.
We got her to the doc, that was $25 dollars, got the medicine $58 dollars, got her home and then I cuddled her and got her meds in her, daddy carried her upstairs. Came back down was like hey Doesn't Gabby have to go to the groomer's today.....
Mama looking like huh hmmm really. So you basically telling me that with no probs whatsoever we spent over 100 plus dollars at target including meds, $25 at the doctor, and now $60 for a low cut, bath etc at the groomers.
Wowzers times a 100....Today has been one of those days where you like really. But didn't nothing really happen there are no shoe bags, clothes etc. Just incidentals and meds. I bought one misc thing at Target as a thank you gift to Hubbin for being so fabulous and loving his girls so much. He has taken care of me and Layna today while we were both snotting and sniffing, just like I took care of him when he got sick. I believe God for keeping our finances cause between dr visits for all of us, puppy dr visits, groomers, and higher utilities than seen in previous years its been one for this month.
Other than that nothing new to report on the baby front. Our love, Alex, is doing well still high up/head down and cervix is closed. Soooo whenever he is ready to make an entrance mommy is ready. Everyone is asking when I am coming home. Well considering Layna had to be induced and I only have so much FMLA time i don't want to go home to quick and end up waiting for the baby for almost a month. My plan is to work for as long as i can, probably right through the 39th week or rather maybe til the middle of it. That way I know that he only at most has two weeks he can stay in the womb before an in induction. i really want to spend the summer with Alex and Layna and Henry sooooo I will continue to soldier on through.
It is getting hard to go to work though. I am sick with allergies and fatigue in the morning. I sleep on the way to drop Hubbin off at work, drag out the car and get myself up that walkway to start my day. I am knocked out at night and on the weekends have to take breaks to nap. But as i have said 1000 times.. i would do it all again for my children, husband, family it is worth it!
The battle cry today come from the 31st Prov (The Wife of Noble Character). I have this scripture in front of me at work. I read it almost daily. But this last little bit reminds me i can do this--I can keep going--'my arms are strong for their task'...PRAISE GOD.
Battle Cry for today:
Proverbs 31:15-17
She gets up while it is still dark; she provides food for her family and portions for her servant girls. She considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a vineyard. She sets about her work vigorously; her arms are strong for her tasks.
Monday, April 14, 2014
36 Weeks Praise God 36 weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkks
Lord Lord, thank you so much for getting to 36 weeks. Any mama will tell you that they are overjoyed to get to this stage because their little one is almost at the home plate. I am in deep prayer everyday thanking God for this child, for this wonderful lil boy.
I thank God for his very life, for his lungs that are fully developing even now as I type this. I wake up and thank God for his father, pray over their father son bond. I pray for his bond with me and his wonderful sister. I am ready for this beautiful lil man. He is a man among men, the blessed of the Lord.
I can sit here and talk about how hard this pregnancy has been, but instead I am thanking God for his blessing, thanking God for a wonderful delivery and a happy healthy baby at the end of it.
The Lord heard my cry, heard my praise and blessed me to conceive. Now I am believing him to deliver this baby happy healthy whole, crying and thrashing into the world. I believe God for Alexander's very life.
If there is anyone thing I want people to get from this Blog is that God does perform miracles, he is a way maker. The devil is a liar, and if you stand firm God will deliver you.
The blessings of the Lord are yes and amen! I'm going to keep standing in the gap, loving Alex praying for him from this moment forward when he is born and his whole long life. Him, my husband and my beautiful daughter. I am here praying for them loving them and standing in the gap interceding for them. God is good, he is worth and we are blessed
Battle Cry:
2nd Corinthians 1:20
For no matter how many promises God has made, they are "Yes" in Christ. And so through him the "Amen" is spoken by us to the glory of God.
I thank God for his very life, for his lungs that are fully developing even now as I type this. I wake up and thank God for his father, pray over their father son bond. I pray for his bond with me and his wonderful sister. I am ready for this beautiful lil man. He is a man among men, the blessed of the Lord.
I can sit here and talk about how hard this pregnancy has been, but instead I am thanking God for his blessing, thanking God for a wonderful delivery and a happy healthy baby at the end of it.
The Lord heard my cry, heard my praise and blessed me to conceive. Now I am believing him to deliver this baby happy healthy whole, crying and thrashing into the world. I believe God for Alexander's very life.
If there is anyone thing I want people to get from this Blog is that God does perform miracles, he is a way maker. The devil is a liar, and if you stand firm God will deliver you.
The blessings of the Lord are yes and amen! I'm going to keep standing in the gap, loving Alex praying for him from this moment forward when he is born and his whole long life. Him, my husband and my beautiful daughter. I am here praying for them loving them and standing in the gap interceding for them. God is good, he is worth and we are blessed
Battle Cry:
2nd Corinthians 1:20
For no matter how many promises God has made, they are "Yes" in Christ. And so through him the "Amen" is spoken by us to the glory of God.
Sunday, April 6, 2014
Growing
So I have to stop to reflect.
Throughout this pregnancy, I have been praying and trying to grow towards God. In fact even before then I was on a journey to get closer to God. So when something arises in life and i blow my lid, instead of first praying about it. I get frustrated with myself.
Frustrated for a couple of reasons: first, I know that God can handle any situation that arises in my life. I know that he made me the head and not the tail. That no weapon formed against me shall prosper. I know what his promises are and I try very hard to keep his word in my heart and coming forward when i face various trials. I know that nothing in this life will ever seperate me from Jesus. But I am growing to the point that it is not enough for to be always asking for mercy and forgiveness. Now I want to walk in God's favor in his grace. I want to serve others, and grow and fulfill the great commission, so that when finally I am called home the Lord can say "well done my good and faithful servant".....
This is what I am called to do, this is what my heart is leaning towards. This is the perspective from which I love my husband and my children and my mother and my family. So when I have those 'not so wonderful days', I always or at least after I get through whatever emotion I am having, seek to first repent to the Lord then go forward in the right spirit!
I guess my point is this, Satan comes only to steal, kill and destroy. It starts first with a thought. which develops into words, then into actions... But if we resist Satan, and rebuke him in Jesus name he will flee from us. My point is there is always a choice, either grow and be and adult in Christ, or give into those things that are not of Christ. We have all sinned and fallen short of the glory, but isn't God good that we can repent and begin again, growing again.
This child in my belly is more than just a child! He is a promise that God is fulfilling, a testament to the faithfulness of the Lord. He along with my husband and Alayna and my mom make me realize that the Lord has never forsaken me. In fact he remembered me, blessed me and kept me at times when I was lost.
And it is with that gratefulness in mind that I try to live my life. That I find the strength to want to keep growing. Keep moving forward.
Battle Cry for Today:
2 Peter 3:18
You therefore, beloved, knowing this beforehand, be on your guard so that you are not carried away by the error of unprincipled men and fall from your own steadfastness, 18but grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To Him be the glory, both now and to the day of eternity. Amen.
Throughout this pregnancy, I have been praying and trying to grow towards God. In fact even before then I was on a journey to get closer to God. So when something arises in life and i blow my lid, instead of first praying about it. I get frustrated with myself.
Frustrated for a couple of reasons: first, I know that God can handle any situation that arises in my life. I know that he made me the head and not the tail. That no weapon formed against me shall prosper. I know what his promises are and I try very hard to keep his word in my heart and coming forward when i face various trials. I know that nothing in this life will ever seperate me from Jesus. But I am growing to the point that it is not enough for to be always asking for mercy and forgiveness. Now I want to walk in God's favor in his grace. I want to serve others, and grow and fulfill the great commission, so that when finally I am called home the Lord can say "well done my good and faithful servant".....
This is what I am called to do, this is what my heart is leaning towards. This is the perspective from which I love my husband and my children and my mother and my family. So when I have those 'not so wonderful days', I always or at least after I get through whatever emotion I am having, seek to first repent to the Lord then go forward in the right spirit!
I guess my point is this, Satan comes only to steal, kill and destroy. It starts first with a thought. which develops into words, then into actions... But if we resist Satan, and rebuke him in Jesus name he will flee from us. My point is there is always a choice, either grow and be and adult in Christ, or give into those things that are not of Christ. We have all sinned and fallen short of the glory, but isn't God good that we can repent and begin again, growing again.
This child in my belly is more than just a child! He is a promise that God is fulfilling, a testament to the faithfulness of the Lord. He along with my husband and Alayna and my mom make me realize that the Lord has never forsaken me. In fact he remembered me, blessed me and kept me at times when I was lost.
And it is with that gratefulness in mind that I try to live my life. That I find the strength to want to keep growing. Keep moving forward.
Battle Cry for Today:
2 Peter 3:18
You therefore, beloved, knowing this beforehand, be on your guard so that you are not carried away by the error of unprincipled men and fall from your own steadfastness, 18but grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To Him be the glory, both now and to the day of eternity. Amen.
Philippians 2:13
for it is God who is at work in you, both to will and to work for His good pleasure.
Monday, March 24, 2014
Pressing Towards The Mark
Sometimes when you are this far along in pregnancy all you can do is put one foot in front of the other.
Like that is about all you got.
That is where I am! And you can't explain it to nobody who hasn't gone through it, hasn't lived it. You can't explain that your body and your mind are at the point of breaking, but it is the grace of God that is getting you through. You can't talk about the fact that in one pregnancy you have had Sciatica, hemorrhoids, debilitating fatigue, pelvic pressure, locusts, the four horseman of the apocalypse it is all the same. Whatever, you are still here by the Grace of God. You are as I am pressing towards the mark through the favor and the grace and the mercy of God.
By the time I get off work I am exhausted, but from the work to hubbin, I pull it together enough to have a smile and a hug and a kiss waiting for him. A ear turned to him to hear about his day cause he deserves that, and I am his wife! By the time Layna gets into the car, I have rested enough where I can ask about her day and give her a hug. Tell her how much mama missed her. Which truly I did! And by the time dinner is served, the one laundry load a day is done and i have straightened up the house, I fall into bed exhausted and the sleep coma comes galloping onto my consciousness. The alarm goes off at 4am. I wake up and start praying. Sometimes like this morning I don't pray first, I just pour out my heart to God. Sometimes it is straight complaining, sometimes it is repenting, sometimes it is thinking through options and plans in the silence of the night. Sometimes it is praising and praising only. But it is the time where I come to God and he restores me. The bible says she rises while it is still night getting food for her household. (Proverbs 31:15)...
I'm at a point where I don't even want to talk to people. Not because I am in some kind of a funk. But because all of my energy is lined up and focused on what God has placed in front of me. Henry and Layna and Alex, and it takes all I have to keep us going. Like I said I am pressing towards the mark. I still pray for all of my friends, thank God for my prayer warriors, who are either in my situation or something else and we lift each other up. But just conversation for conversation's sake not now, cause I am pressing towards the mark.
My armor is bent and shredded places, I fall, God picks me up carries me dusts me off, and puts me back on my feet and I keep moving, moving towards the mark that God has set before me with my family in tow. It isn't pretty, but there is love there, and there is the presence of God there. I would give anything to just rest till Alex gets here, certainly my body is begging me to do just that.
What is the mark. Simple, right now Alex is the mark, he is the promise of God. The gift that God has given me and that is what we are ALL focused on.
I guess this post is for women who are not glowing in their third trimester. Women who are tired, who are pressing towards the mark for their families. Women who are have hitched their tent under the wings of the Almighty and who are pressing towards the mark.
Battle Cry-- Hebrews 10:36
For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God you may receive what is promised.
James 1:4
Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
Like that is about all you got.
That is where I am! And you can't explain it to nobody who hasn't gone through it, hasn't lived it. You can't explain that your body and your mind are at the point of breaking, but it is the grace of God that is getting you through. You can't talk about the fact that in one pregnancy you have had Sciatica, hemorrhoids, debilitating fatigue, pelvic pressure, locusts, the four horseman of the apocalypse it is all the same. Whatever, you are still here by the Grace of God. You are as I am pressing towards the mark through the favor and the grace and the mercy of God.
By the time I get off work I am exhausted, but from the work to hubbin, I pull it together enough to have a smile and a hug and a kiss waiting for him. A ear turned to him to hear about his day cause he deserves that, and I am his wife! By the time Layna gets into the car, I have rested enough where I can ask about her day and give her a hug. Tell her how much mama missed her. Which truly I did! And by the time dinner is served, the one laundry load a day is done and i have straightened up the house, I fall into bed exhausted and the sleep coma comes galloping onto my consciousness. The alarm goes off at 4am. I wake up and start praying. Sometimes like this morning I don't pray first, I just pour out my heart to God. Sometimes it is straight complaining, sometimes it is repenting, sometimes it is thinking through options and plans in the silence of the night. Sometimes it is praising and praising only. But it is the time where I come to God and he restores me. The bible says she rises while it is still night getting food for her household. (Proverbs 31:15)...
I'm at a point where I don't even want to talk to people. Not because I am in some kind of a funk. But because all of my energy is lined up and focused on what God has placed in front of me. Henry and Layna and Alex, and it takes all I have to keep us going. Like I said I am pressing towards the mark. I still pray for all of my friends, thank God for my prayer warriors, who are either in my situation or something else and we lift each other up. But just conversation for conversation's sake not now, cause I am pressing towards the mark.
My armor is bent and shredded places, I fall, God picks me up carries me dusts me off, and puts me back on my feet and I keep moving, moving towards the mark that God has set before me with my family in tow. It isn't pretty, but there is love there, and there is the presence of God there. I would give anything to just rest till Alex gets here, certainly my body is begging me to do just that.
What is the mark. Simple, right now Alex is the mark, he is the promise of God. The gift that God has given me and that is what we are ALL focused on.
I guess this post is for women who are not glowing in their third trimester. Women who are tired, who are pressing towards the mark for their families. Women who are have hitched their tent under the wings of the Almighty and who are pressing towards the mark.
Battle Cry-- Hebrews 10:36
For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God you may receive what is promised.
James 1:4
Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
Saturday, March 22, 2014
Tired, Concerns
I am 32 weeks and like five days.
Nothing much to report except that I am concerned about my tiredness. Like the fatigue that plagued me to the point of tears first trimester and part of second eased up towards the end of second. Now it is back with a vengeance. It isn't just the normal pregnancy fatigue either, it is that combined with the thyroid fatigue. And still all that combined with the fact that I am not taking my other supplements to help bolster me. The dr's said stop taking all the herbs and stuff, just stick to the iron, the prenatal and the armour. I miss the other stuff like the coconut oil, the thyroid support drops, the B12, etc etc.
I prioritize my day like many other people who have thyroid problems prioritize their days. I know I am sharpest and best in the morning. So when i get to work. I work like crazy double and triple checking to make sure I do everything that needs to be done and don't forget. Cause by 1:30, 2:00 the haze is starting to come down. And a part of my mind and physical body is like okay, cold water, drinking it and on face, caffeine anything to keep me going till end of day
So am I just whinning or do i have a point. Yes my point is, I have to spend time to get my body back balanced the way it was before I got pregnant, cause I have this nagging feeling that my energy is going to flag with all that I have on my plate and that sends me into panic mode.
The only thing is that it takes so much time in a already packed day and plus dr's visits to check blood and adjust medicines to get back to optimal. So what is my plan of attack or even defense (depending on how you look at it).
I am using my gifts. To get things as prepared around the house as I can, get meals done, get pantry stocked and rooms together, and try to get that structure I had in place back as much as I an over the summer so that when I do have to go back to work, maybe living in that structure will help everyone not need to do as much to keep it all going.
I envy SAHMs, cause at least if they need to take a nap in the middle of the day they can. hahaha.
Well now that i think of it probably not, they probably don''t get that after the infant stage. Ahhh well being a woman means you gonna work. Isn't that what my grandma Mimmi say, "God has given you all the blessings of your heart baby, but you gone work for that house and the people in it!" Truer words have never been spoken.
Nothing much to report except that I am concerned about my tiredness. Like the fatigue that plagued me to the point of tears first trimester and part of second eased up towards the end of second. Now it is back with a vengeance. It isn't just the normal pregnancy fatigue either, it is that combined with the thyroid fatigue. And still all that combined with the fact that I am not taking my other supplements to help bolster me. The dr's said stop taking all the herbs and stuff, just stick to the iron, the prenatal and the armour. I miss the other stuff like the coconut oil, the thyroid support drops, the B12, etc etc.
I prioritize my day like many other people who have thyroid problems prioritize their days. I know I am sharpest and best in the morning. So when i get to work. I work like crazy double and triple checking to make sure I do everything that needs to be done and don't forget. Cause by 1:30, 2:00 the haze is starting to come down. And a part of my mind and physical body is like okay, cold water, drinking it and on face, caffeine anything to keep me going till end of day
So am I just whinning or do i have a point. Yes my point is, I have to spend time to get my body back balanced the way it was before I got pregnant, cause I have this nagging feeling that my energy is going to flag with all that I have on my plate and that sends me into panic mode.
The only thing is that it takes so much time in a already packed day and plus dr's visits to check blood and adjust medicines to get back to optimal. So what is my plan of attack or even defense (depending on how you look at it).
I am using my gifts. To get things as prepared around the house as I can, get meals done, get pantry stocked and rooms together, and try to get that structure I had in place back as much as I an over the summer so that when I do have to go back to work, maybe living in that structure will help everyone not need to do as much to keep it all going.
I envy SAHMs, cause at least if they need to take a nap in the middle of the day they can. hahaha.
Well now that i think of it probably not, they probably don''t get that after the infant stage. Ahhh well being a woman means you gonna work. Isn't that what my grandma Mimmi say, "God has given you all the blessings of your heart baby, but you gone work for that house and the people in it!" Truer words have never been spoken.
Tuesday, March 18, 2014
32 Weeks and Pelvic Pressure
Today I am 32 weeks and one day! Praise God. I am thanking and praising God continually for my baby's health and me being able to carry him full term. Yesterday. I woke up with this tightness in my pelvic region (lower abdomen) scared me so bad. I didn't know what to think. Went to the bathroom no pinky/browny discharge. No pain in my lower back. Consulted the pregnant woman's pregnancy guide. And during the Eight month "what to expect, while you are expecting" said that this is called pelvic pressure and common in the eight month. So i am like cool bet. Let me go to work. Got to work and oh my God. I tried to stand up and go to the bathroom, my body was like I think not. Every time i took a step i felt the tightness. At this point I am getting concerned, so i sat back down. I called the ob and spoke with Dr. Mckenzies wonderful staff. Tammy said that I needed to rest confirmed no more symptoms and that this is truly just pressure on my pelvis.
The rest of the day I just sat down at work. I even asked a co worker to get water for me. When it was time to leave I got up and was moving slow like a turtle but by the time I walked around the building to the car ,it seemed like Alex had moved or those muscles had warmed up. I was walking better.
Today, I woke up with the same thing, talked to the nurse she said stay home and rest put feet up not a lot of activity, drink lots of water,this should subside after a while. Well, for the most part when I am still it is fine, especially still and lying down. it is just that when I stand it is like whew baby, I feel some pressure down there. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow. I am just believing all is well, and he is still high and head down. I am believing God to go to the very end of April 37/38 + weeks, and that Alex's lungs and everything else will be fully developed and functioning.
I got up early this morning like I do every morning and prayed for all us. Henni, Alex, and Layna especially. Can't wait till he is here and I am healed up some so I can give the hubby a break and pamper him some. He is tired. I am tired, mostly because Layna has had a cold this week. A lil ear infection, not even a bad one, but enough trouble that we had her sleep with us two nights in a row, just to keep a check on fever and so forth. We never do that unless she is sick. But when she is sick mama and daddy want to keep her close. We love that lil one.
I know this blog reads a lot about wow i had this and had that during pregnancy. But overall this has been a great pregnancy. God has moved mountains, kept my blood pressure down, no gestational diabetes, no preeclampsia. God has moved in a mighty way for Alex and his mama and daddy and baby sister. I want to take a moment to acknowledge that. No drugs got me pregnant, That was the Lord, no drugs kept Alex in the womb, that was the Lord. Alex is a product of the goodness of God and his faithfulness. The Lord is faithful. Ephesians 3:20 says "Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us". Praise God. He did it. He kept us, kept Henry, kept me, kept Layna and Alex. The Lord God is faithful. If ever you are looking for a healer a friend in the valley. Call on the name of Jesus. He WILL hear your cry.
Battle Cry for today: Psalms 62:1-2
For God alone my soul waits in silence;
from him comes my salvation.
2 He alone is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress; I shall not be greatly shaken
The rest of the day I just sat down at work. I even asked a co worker to get water for me. When it was time to leave I got up and was moving slow like a turtle but by the time I walked around the building to the car ,it seemed like Alex had moved or those muscles had warmed up. I was walking better.
Today, I woke up with the same thing, talked to the nurse she said stay home and rest put feet up not a lot of activity, drink lots of water,this should subside after a while. Well, for the most part when I am still it is fine, especially still and lying down. it is just that when I stand it is like whew baby, I feel some pressure down there. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow. I am just believing all is well, and he is still high and head down. I am believing God to go to the very end of April 37/38 + weeks, and that Alex's lungs and everything else will be fully developed and functioning.
I got up early this morning like I do every morning and prayed for all us. Henni, Alex, and Layna especially. Can't wait till he is here and I am healed up some so I can give the hubby a break and pamper him some. He is tired. I am tired, mostly because Layna has had a cold this week. A lil ear infection, not even a bad one, but enough trouble that we had her sleep with us two nights in a row, just to keep a check on fever and so forth. We never do that unless she is sick. But when she is sick mama and daddy want to keep her close. We love that lil one.
I know this blog reads a lot about wow i had this and had that during pregnancy. But overall this has been a great pregnancy. God has moved mountains, kept my blood pressure down, no gestational diabetes, no preeclampsia. God has moved in a mighty way for Alex and his mama and daddy and baby sister. I want to take a moment to acknowledge that. No drugs got me pregnant, That was the Lord, no drugs kept Alex in the womb, that was the Lord. Alex is a product of the goodness of God and his faithfulness. The Lord is faithful. Ephesians 3:20 says "Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us". Praise God. He did it. He kept us, kept Henry, kept me, kept Layna and Alex. The Lord God is faithful. If ever you are looking for a healer a friend in the valley. Call on the name of Jesus. He WILL hear your cry.
Battle Cry for today: Psalms 62:1-2
For God alone my soul waits in silence;
from him comes my salvation.
2 He alone is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress; I shall not be greatly shaken
Thursday, March 13, 2014
Happy
This week has been a wonderfully quick week. There have been some long days in there especially since I worked over the weekend and had other duties to perform. But over all this has been a great week.
I have been so blessed. Alex is moving and responding and kicking like a dynamo. i am so ready to meet him. I am constantly in prayer for him and our family. This evening before i jumped on this here blog I was doing my baby prep list. LOL it helps me to not buy frivolously. LOL
Hubbin and the Layna bug have been so great, while mommy has been increasingly tired. Gonna do something special for those two this summer.
Nothing new to report, just that i thank God for this wonderful family.
Battle Cry
Philippians 4:6-7
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
I have been so blessed. Alex is moving and responding and kicking like a dynamo. i am so ready to meet him. I am constantly in prayer for him and our family. This evening before i jumped on this here blog I was doing my baby prep list. LOL it helps me to not buy frivolously. LOL
Hubbin and the Layna bug have been so great, while mommy has been increasingly tired. Gonna do something special for those two this summer.
Nothing new to report, just that i thank God for this wonderful family.
Battle Cry
Philippians 4:6-7
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Wednesday, March 5, 2014
30 Weeks Pregnant!
Praise be to God, I am 30 weeks pregnant. I am soooo soooo sooo thankful to be 30 weeks pregnant. I love this child. Our whole family, me and Henry and Layna love Alex and are anxiously awaiting him.
Every morning I get up in the morning and pray to God for Alex's very life, his health a uncomplicated birth.
I praise God for him! I praise God for bringing me through this pregnancy successfully with our lil bundle of joy at the end.
Battle Cry today!
Deut. 28:4 – “Blessed shall be the offspring of your body and the produce of your ground and the offspring of your beasts, the increase of your herd and the young of your flock.”
Every morning I get up in the morning and pray to God for Alex's very life, his health a uncomplicated birth.
I praise God for him! I praise God for bringing me through this pregnancy successfully with our lil bundle of joy at the end.
Battle Cry today!
Deut. 28:4 – “Blessed shall be the offspring of your body and the produce of your ground and the offspring of your beasts, the increase of your herd and the young of your flock.”
Saturday, February 8, 2014
Winter Storms, Kick Counting and Still Praying
Week before last my particular region of the country was hit with was a minor snow storm by all standards. However, it still closed down school and work and everything else for three whole days.
My mother and I were stranded in a shelter at a wonderful church. I was at my wits end because both of my loves, my hubby and my baby girl we elsewhere.
Neither one of us could get to our daughter. I was in that church shelter on Tuesday walking the floors praying for my husband and my lil girl. God heard them prayers and got them home safe.
God continued to show his mercy to me and my mother while we were in the shelter. We had to sleep on the floors and on the chairs. I tried even sleeping on top of a let down picnic table the first half of the first night. But even with all that, we never missed a meal. Had great food prepared by the church chef. We had great fellowship, and the sense of God and gratefulness in that group of 250 snowed in people was refreshing and wonderful.
Alex certainly enjoyed it, he was kicking up a storm at the different noises all around him.
Eventually though we were able to get out and get home safely. I just thank God for the experience. I thank God for his mercy and Grace in keeping all of my family safe, including the little on inside of me.
This week I had my 26 week check up. God is soo good. No gestational diabetes, blood pressure has come down and Alex heart beat is strong and steady at 146. I am praying him through and beleiving God for him. I am at the stage now where you have to count his kicks. Now if you are a slightly OCD person like myself, you will know that counting kicks sets off my particular brand of anxiousness something fierce. But as I tell my hubby, I have been Alex's mama since he was the size of a grain of rice in my womb. The level of love I have for Alex and Alayna and Henry is unparalleled and so I am all over making sure he is doing okay. Making sure I count his kicks, love on him, stroke my belly talk to him, pray for him, pray for delivery. I just can't love any of them any other way than completely and with my whole self.
So yes. I have made three sheets and i just make notes about his activity. I am at the stage of pregnancy, last of second trimester going into third trimester where I can honestly say I am ready. Ready for to come, ready to hold him, and soooo READY TO have my body back.
Between, the extreme fatigue which I still have, the neck cramps, the sciatica, the hemmroids, the constipation, the colds, the sinus infections, the scares with blood pressure. I am pretty much at my witts end. I am so ready for the promise which is this child. He is the promised from the Lord, just as Alayna was.
So I suppose the battle cry for today is this
Hebrews 10:36
For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God you may receive what is promised.
Praise God.
My mother and I were stranded in a shelter at a wonderful church. I was at my wits end because both of my loves, my hubby and my baby girl we elsewhere.
Neither one of us could get to our daughter. I was in that church shelter on Tuesday walking the floors praying for my husband and my lil girl. God heard them prayers and got them home safe.
God continued to show his mercy to me and my mother while we were in the shelter. We had to sleep on the floors and on the chairs. I tried even sleeping on top of a let down picnic table the first half of the first night. But even with all that, we never missed a meal. Had great food prepared by the church chef. We had great fellowship, and the sense of God and gratefulness in that group of 250 snowed in people was refreshing and wonderful.
Alex certainly enjoyed it, he was kicking up a storm at the different noises all around him.
Eventually though we were able to get out and get home safely. I just thank God for the experience. I thank God for his mercy and Grace in keeping all of my family safe, including the little on inside of me.
This week I had my 26 week check up. God is soo good. No gestational diabetes, blood pressure has come down and Alex heart beat is strong and steady at 146. I am praying him through and beleiving God for him. I am at the stage now where you have to count his kicks. Now if you are a slightly OCD person like myself, you will know that counting kicks sets off my particular brand of anxiousness something fierce. But as I tell my hubby, I have been Alex's mama since he was the size of a grain of rice in my womb. The level of love I have for Alex and Alayna and Henry is unparalleled and so I am all over making sure he is doing okay. Making sure I count his kicks, love on him, stroke my belly talk to him, pray for him, pray for delivery. I just can't love any of them any other way than completely and with my whole self.
So yes. I have made three sheets and i just make notes about his activity. I am at the stage of pregnancy, last of second trimester going into third trimester where I can honestly say I am ready. Ready for to come, ready to hold him, and soooo READY TO have my body back.
Between, the extreme fatigue which I still have, the neck cramps, the sciatica, the hemmroids, the constipation, the colds, the sinus infections, the scares with blood pressure. I am pretty much at my witts end. I am so ready for the promise which is this child. He is the promised from the Lord, just as Alayna was.
So I suppose the battle cry for today is this
Hebrews 10:36
For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God you may receive what is promised.
Praise God.
Thursday, January 23, 2014
Standing in the Gap - Learning to be a Praying Woman
I am so blessed to report that Alex is 24 weeks, and 3 days today.
I felt him moving around there today good. And I just had to stop and thank Jesus. Stop and say thank you Jesus for this miracle child that he has given to my husband and I.
Every morning, I wake up and pray for my husband, Alayna, Alex and my family. During this early morning time, I realize that this is what the bible talks about in Proverbs 31. The wife of noble character "rises while it is still night and gets food (spiritual) for her family.
This entire year, this journey to Alexander has brought me closer to God. Matured me, and taught me what it means to be a wife, to be a mother, to cling to God's unchanging hand.
I named this post standing in the gap, because I feel like my spiritual gift is prayer. God has shown me whatever I bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever I loose on earth will be loosed in heaven. God has shown me he is faithful, he CARES for me, for my husband and my children.
I committ my heart to God and being a faithful steward over all that he has blessed me with.
Praise God.
Battle Cry for today:
Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, -Ephesians 3:20-
Saturday, January 18, 2014
Thyroid Disease
Had so much fun with my lil girl yesterday. We went to go and see Disney on Ice, she loved it almost as much as I did. Unfortunately today I have the sniffles and am extremely exhausted because there were like thousands of people there. Walking with my lil tummy bouncing up and down and a toddler holding on to me and nachos and drinks balanced on the other arm was like whew.
What i wish people knew about thyroid disease is just because you get on a pill doesn't mean that the exhaustion goes away completely. It just allows you to function a little bit better. I remember when i was younger one of my cousins commented Kiki don't run no where. At the time I was like eh, oh well no i don't. .Fast forward a couple of years. I am in high school, working, after school most days and on the weekend. I remember sitting at the table with my friends, and looking over at the shiney young ladies who seemed to be bouncing off of their skin in excitement of another school day. At first I thought that maybe I felt so removed from them because I worked like most of my friends and maybe we were not on the same wavelenght.
As I reflect back on it now. I realize that I was envious of those young ladies, not because of hair or cuter clothes etc etc. I was envious because they had energy and I did not. I used to be tired at the start of the day through the day. Gym was a special kind of torture at the end of which after the shower I wanted to stretch out on on of the benches and go to sleep, not take a nap, go to sleep.
I am at a point now where I am taking control of my condition. Got the best meds, eating better, exercising and in general doing everything I can to make sure that my thyroid does not interfer with my life.
Yes I have thyroid disease, yes I get tired quicker than most. Yes i have to work out twice that of a normal person and yes I have other associated stuff like the metabolic disorder. But I have something else to, the will to not let it overtake me.
What i wish people knew about thyroid disease is just because you get on a pill doesn't mean that the exhaustion goes away completely. It just allows you to function a little bit better. I remember when i was younger one of my cousins commented Kiki don't run no where. At the time I was like eh, oh well no i don't. .Fast forward a couple of years. I am in high school, working, after school most days and on the weekend. I remember sitting at the table with my friends, and looking over at the shiney young ladies who seemed to be bouncing off of their skin in excitement of another school day. At first I thought that maybe I felt so removed from them because I worked like most of my friends and maybe we were not on the same wavelenght.
As I reflect back on it now. I realize that I was envious of those young ladies, not because of hair or cuter clothes etc etc. I was envious because they had energy and I did not. I used to be tired at the start of the day through the day. Gym was a special kind of torture at the end of which after the shower I wanted to stretch out on on of the benches and go to sleep, not take a nap, go to sleep.
I am at a point now where I am taking control of my condition. Got the best meds, eating better, exercising and in general doing everything I can to make sure that my thyroid does not interfer with my life.
Yes I have thyroid disease, yes I get tired quicker than most. Yes i have to work out twice that of a normal person and yes I have other associated stuff like the metabolic disorder. But I have something else to, the will to not let it overtake me.
23 weeks and five days
Our little one is kicking kicking kicking.
I am so blessed to be pregnant, so blessed for a child to born unto me. Everyday I am still at it praying for a healthy and happy Alexander.
Praying over Alayna! She is my lil heart. Everyday I pray over her safety, over her learning, and her growth and character as a woman.
Praying for my marriage. Thanking God for this awesome man of God in my life, and praying to grow deeper into a proverbs 31 woman.
Of all the storms I have been through in my life, it is so wonderful to know, that whatever trials may come God is with me. I don't have to scream and shout and shed as many tears. Because God is with me, he comforts me. Reminds me that I will not be broken, I will not be shattered but I will be sustained by His might and power and glory. God quiets the child in me and build the woman.
Every smile isn't a yeaaaahhh smile, some smiles are just Thank You Jesus for not forgetting about me, for sustaining me in the storms of life.
Battle Cry for Today
Isaiah 41:10 fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
I am so blessed to be pregnant, so blessed for a child to born unto me. Everyday I am still at it praying for a healthy and happy Alexander.
Praying over Alayna! She is my lil heart. Everyday I pray over her safety, over her learning, and her growth and character as a woman.
Praying for my marriage. Thanking God for this awesome man of God in my life, and praying to grow deeper into a proverbs 31 woman.
Of all the storms I have been through in my life, it is so wonderful to know, that whatever trials may come God is with me. I don't have to scream and shout and shed as many tears. Because God is with me, he comforts me. Reminds me that I will not be broken, I will not be shattered but I will be sustained by His might and power and glory. God quiets the child in me and build the woman.
Every smile isn't a yeaaaahhh smile, some smiles are just Thank You Jesus for not forgetting about me, for sustaining me in the storms of life.
Battle Cry for Today
Isaiah 41:10 fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Thursday, January 2, 2014
Psalms 46:10
In my prayer time in the early morning this morning. I had a lot of things to take to God. Things that were on on my heart. Sometimes, it is not good to talk to other people about the things of your heart. Sometimes the only person who you need tell is God. I heard the Father say before I even got real good into my prayer, "Be Still and Know That I AM God".... It quieted my soul.
Pregnancy is going fine, I have had a migraine though for 5 days from a sinus infection. A migraine to the point, I was throwing up and it was waking me out of sleep. But I went to the dr got a Zpack and things are doing better.
The battle cry for today is:
Be still and know that I am God.
Pregnancy is going fine, I have had a migraine though for 5 days from a sinus infection. A migraine to the point, I was throwing up and it was waking me out of sleep. But I went to the dr got a Zpack and things are doing better.
The battle cry for today is:
Be still and know that I am God.
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