Day 10

What can i say about today well one it is getting easier. I have lost another pound so that is a total of 5. Whoop Whoop every small victory I will cherish. I went to work out yesterday did 27 minutes on the treadmill a mile and a half achieved. No two miles like I like to do, cause I was so tired and racing against the clock to get my husband. We are down to one car, my mom's car is broke so she has my car.

I probably won't get to workout today either for the same reason, no time, but I think I can come home and do a video. I am starting to stop apologizing for putting my health first/ at least get to work out a few times a week. It is soooo HARD trying to carve out that time. Mostly because I have a lot of balls in the air. I am trying to get a designation for my job, hubby is in school, Layna has to be taken care of and not left to watch Dora all night long. She needs our interaction, our time reading to her and doing her numbers and just playing with her. Plus on top of all this there is the house maintenance and the cooking. Please let me tell you this diet is cooking intensive which I like but with the long list of things I have to do.....its like dang.

I am just gonna tell last night with all the stress from work, one car, and doing a lil mid week shopping. I only was able to read Layna one bed time story. I was busy most of the night before that prepping our food, having a conversation about the fam with my gran and aunt. Trying to get organized for the following day. I hate that normally I get to spend time with her, read a couple of books, do letters cuddle here basically reinforce we are here for her.

I have talked to Hubby and we have made a decision, after his degree is done and my designation wraps up...approximately a year and a half for him about 8 months for me. That is it we are not pursuing any more time drain type of pursuits educationally, our family our daughter is more important than fast climbing up the corporate ladder. Sigh these are choices you know.... choices...

DAY 9...WHERE HAVE I BEEN....OH THE CRAVINGS I HAVE HAD

OK....so let me first start out by saying this is day 9. I am a busy working mom and wife....Saying that it is super hard  trying to carve out time to get here, even though this is where sanity lies for me. So what has happened between day four and nine.

Well I have gone from 233 to 229 lbs. That is freaking awesome I know a lot of it has to be water. But maybe not all of it cause I have been working my tooshie off at the gym. I am now up to 45 min on the treadmill where i have been burning anywhere from 380 to 420 calories with an incline of 4 and a speed of 3.4.....hey you gotta start somewhere. I remember being fit enough to job with an incline on the treadmill such is not the case now honey LOL....

Food, I have been doing low car paleo...What does that mean. Well it means I have been limiting my fruit servings. I know I have to do this because well anything sweet I usually can find ways to go over board with. A typical day for me is a egg casserole minus thyme. I have found i hate thyme, then pecans and cherry tomato's for a snack, then a salad chauk full of vegetables for lunch, then more pecans, water for a snack then Final its time for the gym after work meal is my favorite, cut apple with almond butter. That soo helps with the sweet tooth thing. But I even watch that cause the almond butter has oil. Dinner is normally where I am a little more liberal like last night we fried eggplant in olive oil after coating it a lil with parmesan cheese....soooooo what don't judge me.....I had to have something that would take care of that pastaish taste bud I still have. It was my first time eating egg plant and it was delicious. You can have eggplant on paleo. The cheese probably not so much... But it helped me not go to Olive Garden and order the over 700+ calorie fettucinni alfredo. I entitled this post Oh the cravings, because I still like food. But like i said in post number one. I want a baby, and nothing taste as good as a new born baby will feel....

Which brings me to my life.... I haven't had my period yet, I am not overly concerned about it because like post one said we were having fertility issues which is why I originally decided to get on this diet in the first place. My period came twice the month of December, once in January and now it was supposed to be here on the 22nd of this month but no AF. I am assuming my body is trying to regulate itself, so I won't get worried till say March. At that point to the doctor I go and say hey Dr. Man....what in the world is going on with me AF and these ovaries of mine....For now I am just happy with working out being able to stick to this low carb paleo plan, and trying to banish the DEEP desire for stuff like pizza, olive garden, chuey's in to the back of my brain. Honestly though on this diet I do have more energy. I am rarely hungry and my skin is starting to look better. Before I was having tons of black head breakouts on my face, and boils constantly under my arm...Not as much now....Just observations.

I am also taking care of a lot of other things in my life, one I am finally signing up to get braces. I need them my gap in my front two teeth are spreading like for real. To the point my aunt commented on it in only her sweet non judgmental way. "kiki,,,,baby is that gap getting a lil wider"....Uhh huhh was all I could think to say LOL... but she said it like it was a question, not a freaking fact which it is.

In addition to the braces I also had a hearing test and I have to get a hearing aid....due to all the ear infections I had as a kid, which brings me now to Layna bug. She is getting lots of ear infections too. On Friday she will get tubes. I have been praying praying for over a month that she is alright in the surgery praying over the dr's and nurse and anesthesiologist who will be in there. Lord being a parent is so real. its so real and I just thank God for my baby coming out of that quick fast and unscathed. I pray for parents of children  who really are sick. Bless those parents lord who have to make decisions all the time.


Life, or rather my life is so full and rich and stressfull and complex and restrained in ways. I wonder if any other wife/mom/single gals feel the same.

Till next time.

Keda

Day 4...Going Strong and Learning

Well let me back up before i go to day 4. Day 3 was Layna's bday she of course had cupcakes and ice cream and a feast from the family of fried KFC, home made mac/cheese, potato salad, fried okra, greens. then ice cream and the cup cakes. I DID NOT partake in the dessert at all even though i hand picked the cupcakes from one of the best bakeries in town.  I was/am proud of that. But i did have greens one piece of fried chicken a handful of Okra and some potato salad. So i ate Paleo all day and then came home and did that...no work out...so all in all it was a bad day but not an ATOMIC go hide in the closet you ate seven of the 12 cupcakes...Yes people i can put a cupcake away in under a minute...LOL.....

So today is day 4. I go and weigh myself, nothing has changed, haven't gained or loss today. Which is a good thing. Good too especially considering Aunt Flow is around the corner and I normally pick up about three pounds just about the time she comes to visit. My legs are cramping I can feel her coming. ...More to come when i get home from the gym.

Went to the gym today did 40 minutes on the treadmill with a moderate incline and a slower speed. Still i was about to burn 333 calories and did my two miles which is my goal per treadmill session. Got back home had leftovers and greens with the family.

Now here comes the revelation.... I have been having problems ovulating. Considering we want another child this is of course heart breaking news....heartbreaking to the point i felt myself going into a depression, then I remembered with Layna, our first child I took diet pills and lost some weight. She was conceived in May a month before our scheduled meeting with the fertility specialist. Soooo I started thinking ok I know i am bigger than I was when I conceived her, and I know from the holidays I have been in this mode of eating everything not nailed down.....Allll my heart's desire....So today, day four Friday, I started thinking about what the doctor told me. My Obgyn said that i didn't necessarily need to lose weight as much as lower my BMI which duuuhhhh translates into losing weight. Anyway while in his office I burst into tears telling him I had been trying to lose weight how discouraging it was, how getting below 200 was like a herculean feat for me.....Poor man he looked like he was saying, "fly me outta here sweet Jesus""""....Reminded me of Jenny from Forest Gump, God make me a bird so I can fly far far away..Hehe...So after getting a hold of myself I didn't knoww hat to do so i went back into polite Southern Lady mode, asked about his kids, how he was doing etc. He seemed to relax we bantered for a bit and then he said keep trying to lose weight I am going to double your letrozole....and we will go from there. I said ok...went back to work....

While at work I prayed and DECIDED  to believe God that one, I would have another child from my womb and my husband's seed  and two that I was going to confront my eating habits and my fertility. I did two things. One i bought a book I had been hearing about. Taking Charge of Your Fertility, haven't opened it yet. And got on the internet researching.....yes i was researching at work. It was either that or start screaming at the top of my lungs while crying and flailing about. I chose research. Anyway,,,,,I believe it was a idea from God, but i typed in blood sugar and infertility. A ton of stuff came across the screen...The one that got my attention was this article.

http://www.deliciousobsessions.com/2012/08/lets-get-personal-blood-sugar-control-is-vital-and-how-lowering-your-carbs-can-help-boost-fertility/

I immediately read the article identified myself, as the high carb eating, somewhat gluttons, good intentioned spirit that the article talks about. And then was shocked disturbed and amazed that my hight carb diet was raising my blood sugar and may be the cause of the ovarian problems i was experiencing. I immediately sent a email to hubbin, see below for excerpt of email.

OMG OMG…… SERIOUSLY…. GOD. I AM TELLING YOU IT WAS GOD….. THAT IS WHO PUT THE THOUGHT IN MY MIND TO TYPE INTO GOOGLE LINK BETWEEN BLOOD SUGAR AND FERTILITY.

THIS ARTICLE BASICALLY SAYS THAT PEOPLE WITH HIGH CARB DIETS (ME) EXPERIENCE OVARIAN REALITY FERTITILTY PROBLEMS. I AM SENDING YOU THE LINK THAT I SOOOO WANT YOU TO READ AND FOR US TO DISCUSS TONIGHT ALONG WITH THE EXCEPTS….WOW…. I AM LOW CARB LOW CARB……GOOOD GOD ALMIGHTY THEY ARE KILLING US WITH MCDONALDS.

…The results of this study found that compared to women eating diets of lower GL values, those eating diets with the highest GL were 92 per cent more likely to suffer from ovulatory infertility. Total carbohydrate intake was also associated with risk of ovulatory fertility, with highest intakes associated with a 91 per cent increased risk compared to the lowest intakes.

According to Dr. Fox, women at his clinic who follow a low-carb diet double their chances of conception. Those who stick to a diet as close to zero carbs as possible rarely need aggressive therapies and become pregnant in one or two cycles with simple oral fertility drugs.

I am sure most people would be like duh, but you see this is revelation for me. I wasn't raised understanding carbs or calories or healthy eating choices. I was raised create a comfy home with good food and happy faces. That centered around carbs, dipping sauces, fast food two or three or four or five times a week and maybe a couple of times a day.....I didn't realize that i couldn't eat pizza and fries in the cafeteria like the rest of my skinny friends. Aaaaannnd further more did not realize that was what was making me fat. I just thought I was unlucky. When you have friends in highschool and college who are basically eating the same diet you are, and at most are thick, no where near fat.... You think you are unlucky......It wasn't till I was grown and nearing the middle of my college career that I started to understand you have to eat for YOUR body type.... Anywho... this blog, day 4 is to say.....I believe the articles....and because I believe it, I am now doing a low carb paleo diet. This thing is serious friends. I won't let obesity rob me of children with my husband. Till next time. 

Day 2

Today is day two of my Paleo diet. I am fairly confident this is the hardest diet plan i have ever begun. No scratch that this is the first time I have ever started a weight loss plan that consistent of changing how I eat and why I eat for the long term. The first reason I started this diet is because I would like to have another child. I soooo want another baby from my body. But my body is freaking rebellig against me for some unknown reason. Rebelling how well lets see. I gain weight on top of weight it goes no where but to my stomach. My progesterone is really low, like real low like with fertility meds it was .2. not 2 but point 2. I found that out yesterday. After which time I could not go workout. I cried and went home and wanted something to eat so badly I almost abandoned this day one and went to Chilli's to have a Paradise Pie which would have at least eased some of the pain....But i didnt I stayed on the diet because I want crave desire and need another child. The doctor has told me if i get my BMI down it may help me have another child. OK doc...here goes.....The second reason I started this diet is because I am 233 lbs, which is almost the biggest I have ever been in my adult life....I say it is the second reason because the first emotionally is my motivation. I had almost come to terms with being bigger. Was finding cute clothes on the internet, and just settling into this is my lot. But when my Dr told me in order to have a child and get my body to working right losing weight would be a major help well that was the kick in the A** that i needed....I think that is all for now. More to come hopefully...What's more i hope i can make it to day 3...haha laughing but very serious.