Sometimes when you are this far along in pregnancy all you can do is put one foot in front of the other.
Like that is about all you got.
That is where I am! And you can't explain it to nobody who hasn't gone through it, hasn't lived it. You can't explain that your body and your mind are at the point of breaking, but it is the grace of God that is getting you through. You can't talk about the fact that in one pregnancy you have had Sciatica, hemorrhoids, debilitating fatigue, pelvic pressure, locusts, the four horseman of the apocalypse it is all the same. Whatever, you are still here by the Grace of God. You are as I am pressing towards the mark through the favor and the grace and the mercy of God.
By the time I get off work I am exhausted, but from the work to hubbin, I pull it together enough to have a smile and a hug and a kiss waiting for him. A ear turned to him to hear about his day cause he deserves that, and I am his wife! By the time Layna gets into the car, I have rested enough where I can ask about her day and give her a hug. Tell her how much mama missed her. Which truly I did! And by the time dinner is served, the one laundry load a day is done and i have straightened up the house, I fall into bed exhausted and the sleep coma comes galloping onto my consciousness. The alarm goes off at 4am. I wake up and start praying. Sometimes like this morning I don't pray first, I just pour out my heart to God. Sometimes it is straight complaining, sometimes it is repenting, sometimes it is thinking through options and plans in the silence of the night. Sometimes it is praising and praising only. But it is the time where I come to God and he restores me. The bible says she rises while it is still night getting food for her household. (Proverbs 31:15)...
I'm at a point where I don't even want to talk to people. Not because I am in some kind of a funk. But because all of my energy is lined up and focused on what God has placed in front of me. Henry and Layna and Alex, and it takes all I have to keep us going. Like I said I am pressing towards the mark. I still pray for all of my friends, thank God for my prayer warriors, who are either in my situation or something else and we lift each other up. But just conversation for conversation's sake not now, cause I am pressing towards the mark.
My armor is bent and shredded places, I fall, God picks me up carries me dusts me off, and puts me back on my feet and I keep moving, moving towards the mark that God has set before me with my family in tow. It isn't pretty, but there is love there, and there is the presence of God there. I would give anything to just rest till Alex gets here, certainly my body is begging me to do just that.
What is the mark. Simple, right now Alex is the mark, he is the promise of God. The gift that God has given me and that is what we are ALL focused on.
I guess this post is for women who are not glowing in their third trimester. Women who are tired, who are pressing towards the mark for their families. Women who are have hitched their tent under the wings of the Almighty and who are pressing towards the mark.
Battle Cry-- Hebrews 10:36
For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God you may receive what is promised.
James 1:4
Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
Monday, March 24, 2014
Saturday, March 22, 2014
Tired, Concerns
I am 32 weeks and like five days.
Nothing much to report except that I am concerned about my tiredness. Like the fatigue that plagued me to the point of tears first trimester and part of second eased up towards the end of second. Now it is back with a vengeance. It isn't just the normal pregnancy fatigue either, it is that combined with the thyroid fatigue. And still all that combined with the fact that I am not taking my other supplements to help bolster me. The dr's said stop taking all the herbs and stuff, just stick to the iron, the prenatal and the armour. I miss the other stuff like the coconut oil, the thyroid support drops, the B12, etc etc.
I prioritize my day like many other people who have thyroid problems prioritize their days. I know I am sharpest and best in the morning. So when i get to work. I work like crazy double and triple checking to make sure I do everything that needs to be done and don't forget. Cause by 1:30, 2:00 the haze is starting to come down. And a part of my mind and physical body is like okay, cold water, drinking it and on face, caffeine anything to keep me going till end of day
So am I just whinning or do i have a point. Yes my point is, I have to spend time to get my body back balanced the way it was before I got pregnant, cause I have this nagging feeling that my energy is going to flag with all that I have on my plate and that sends me into panic mode.
The only thing is that it takes so much time in a already packed day and plus dr's visits to check blood and adjust medicines to get back to optimal. So what is my plan of attack or even defense (depending on how you look at it).
I am using my gifts. To get things as prepared around the house as I can, get meals done, get pantry stocked and rooms together, and try to get that structure I had in place back as much as I an over the summer so that when I do have to go back to work, maybe living in that structure will help everyone not need to do as much to keep it all going.
I envy SAHMs, cause at least if they need to take a nap in the middle of the day they can. hahaha.
Well now that i think of it probably not, they probably don''t get that after the infant stage. Ahhh well being a woman means you gonna work. Isn't that what my grandma Mimmi say, "God has given you all the blessings of your heart baby, but you gone work for that house and the people in it!" Truer words have never been spoken.
Nothing much to report except that I am concerned about my tiredness. Like the fatigue that plagued me to the point of tears first trimester and part of second eased up towards the end of second. Now it is back with a vengeance. It isn't just the normal pregnancy fatigue either, it is that combined with the thyroid fatigue. And still all that combined with the fact that I am not taking my other supplements to help bolster me. The dr's said stop taking all the herbs and stuff, just stick to the iron, the prenatal and the armour. I miss the other stuff like the coconut oil, the thyroid support drops, the B12, etc etc.
I prioritize my day like many other people who have thyroid problems prioritize their days. I know I am sharpest and best in the morning. So when i get to work. I work like crazy double and triple checking to make sure I do everything that needs to be done and don't forget. Cause by 1:30, 2:00 the haze is starting to come down. And a part of my mind and physical body is like okay, cold water, drinking it and on face, caffeine anything to keep me going till end of day
So am I just whinning or do i have a point. Yes my point is, I have to spend time to get my body back balanced the way it was before I got pregnant, cause I have this nagging feeling that my energy is going to flag with all that I have on my plate and that sends me into panic mode.
The only thing is that it takes so much time in a already packed day and plus dr's visits to check blood and adjust medicines to get back to optimal. So what is my plan of attack or even defense (depending on how you look at it).
I am using my gifts. To get things as prepared around the house as I can, get meals done, get pantry stocked and rooms together, and try to get that structure I had in place back as much as I an over the summer so that when I do have to go back to work, maybe living in that structure will help everyone not need to do as much to keep it all going.
I envy SAHMs, cause at least if they need to take a nap in the middle of the day they can. hahaha.
Well now that i think of it probably not, they probably don''t get that after the infant stage. Ahhh well being a woman means you gonna work. Isn't that what my grandma Mimmi say, "God has given you all the blessings of your heart baby, but you gone work for that house and the people in it!" Truer words have never been spoken.
Tuesday, March 18, 2014
32 Weeks and Pelvic Pressure
Today I am 32 weeks and one day! Praise God. I am thanking and praising God continually for my baby's health and me being able to carry him full term. Yesterday. I woke up with this tightness in my pelvic region (lower abdomen) scared me so bad. I didn't know what to think. Went to the bathroom no pinky/browny discharge. No pain in my lower back. Consulted the pregnant woman's pregnancy guide. And during the Eight month "what to expect, while you are expecting" said that this is called pelvic pressure and common in the eight month. So i am like cool bet. Let me go to work. Got to work and oh my God. I tried to stand up and go to the bathroom, my body was like I think not. Every time i took a step i felt the tightness. At this point I am getting concerned, so i sat back down. I called the ob and spoke with Dr. Mckenzies wonderful staff. Tammy said that I needed to rest confirmed no more symptoms and that this is truly just pressure on my pelvis.
The rest of the day I just sat down at work. I even asked a co worker to get water for me. When it was time to leave I got up and was moving slow like a turtle but by the time I walked around the building to the car ,it seemed like Alex had moved or those muscles had warmed up. I was walking better.
Today, I woke up with the same thing, talked to the nurse she said stay home and rest put feet up not a lot of activity, drink lots of water,this should subside after a while. Well, for the most part when I am still it is fine, especially still and lying down. it is just that when I stand it is like whew baby, I feel some pressure down there. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow. I am just believing all is well, and he is still high and head down. I am believing God to go to the very end of April 37/38 + weeks, and that Alex's lungs and everything else will be fully developed and functioning.
I got up early this morning like I do every morning and prayed for all us. Henni, Alex, and Layna especially. Can't wait till he is here and I am healed up some so I can give the hubby a break and pamper him some. He is tired. I am tired, mostly because Layna has had a cold this week. A lil ear infection, not even a bad one, but enough trouble that we had her sleep with us two nights in a row, just to keep a check on fever and so forth. We never do that unless she is sick. But when she is sick mama and daddy want to keep her close. We love that lil one.
I know this blog reads a lot about wow i had this and had that during pregnancy. But overall this has been a great pregnancy. God has moved mountains, kept my blood pressure down, no gestational diabetes, no preeclampsia. God has moved in a mighty way for Alex and his mama and daddy and baby sister. I want to take a moment to acknowledge that. No drugs got me pregnant, That was the Lord, no drugs kept Alex in the womb, that was the Lord. Alex is a product of the goodness of God and his faithfulness. The Lord is faithful. Ephesians 3:20 says "Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us". Praise God. He did it. He kept us, kept Henry, kept me, kept Layna and Alex. The Lord God is faithful. If ever you are looking for a healer a friend in the valley. Call on the name of Jesus. He WILL hear your cry.
Battle Cry for today: Psalms 62:1-2
For God alone my soul waits in silence;
from him comes my salvation.
2 He alone is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress; I shall not be greatly shaken
The rest of the day I just sat down at work. I even asked a co worker to get water for me. When it was time to leave I got up and was moving slow like a turtle but by the time I walked around the building to the car ,it seemed like Alex had moved or those muscles had warmed up. I was walking better.
Today, I woke up with the same thing, talked to the nurse she said stay home and rest put feet up not a lot of activity, drink lots of water,this should subside after a while. Well, for the most part when I am still it is fine, especially still and lying down. it is just that when I stand it is like whew baby, I feel some pressure down there. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow. I am just believing all is well, and he is still high and head down. I am believing God to go to the very end of April 37/38 + weeks, and that Alex's lungs and everything else will be fully developed and functioning.
I got up early this morning like I do every morning and prayed for all us. Henni, Alex, and Layna especially. Can't wait till he is here and I am healed up some so I can give the hubby a break and pamper him some. He is tired. I am tired, mostly because Layna has had a cold this week. A lil ear infection, not even a bad one, but enough trouble that we had her sleep with us two nights in a row, just to keep a check on fever and so forth. We never do that unless she is sick. But when she is sick mama and daddy want to keep her close. We love that lil one.
I know this blog reads a lot about wow i had this and had that during pregnancy. But overall this has been a great pregnancy. God has moved mountains, kept my blood pressure down, no gestational diabetes, no preeclampsia. God has moved in a mighty way for Alex and his mama and daddy and baby sister. I want to take a moment to acknowledge that. No drugs got me pregnant, That was the Lord, no drugs kept Alex in the womb, that was the Lord. Alex is a product of the goodness of God and his faithfulness. The Lord is faithful. Ephesians 3:20 says "Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us". Praise God. He did it. He kept us, kept Henry, kept me, kept Layna and Alex. The Lord God is faithful. If ever you are looking for a healer a friend in the valley. Call on the name of Jesus. He WILL hear your cry.
Battle Cry for today: Psalms 62:1-2
For God alone my soul waits in silence;
from him comes my salvation.
2 He alone is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress; I shall not be greatly shaken
Thursday, March 13, 2014
Happy
This week has been a wonderfully quick week. There have been some long days in there especially since I worked over the weekend and had other duties to perform. But over all this has been a great week.
I have been so blessed. Alex is moving and responding and kicking like a dynamo. i am so ready to meet him. I am constantly in prayer for him and our family. This evening before i jumped on this here blog I was doing my baby prep list. LOL it helps me to not buy frivolously. LOL
Hubbin and the Layna bug have been so great, while mommy has been increasingly tired. Gonna do something special for those two this summer.
Nothing new to report, just that i thank God for this wonderful family.
Battle Cry
Philippians 4:6-7
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
I have been so blessed. Alex is moving and responding and kicking like a dynamo. i am so ready to meet him. I am constantly in prayer for him and our family. This evening before i jumped on this here blog I was doing my baby prep list. LOL it helps me to not buy frivolously. LOL
Hubbin and the Layna bug have been so great, while mommy has been increasingly tired. Gonna do something special for those two this summer.
Nothing new to report, just that i thank God for this wonderful family.
Battle Cry
Philippians 4:6-7
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Wednesday, March 5, 2014
30 Weeks Pregnant!
Praise be to God, I am 30 weeks pregnant. I am soooo soooo sooo thankful to be 30 weeks pregnant. I love this child. Our whole family, me and Henry and Layna love Alex and are anxiously awaiting him.
Every morning I get up in the morning and pray to God for Alex's very life, his health a uncomplicated birth.
I praise God for him! I praise God for bringing me through this pregnancy successfully with our lil bundle of joy at the end.
Battle Cry today!
Deut. 28:4 – “Blessed shall be the offspring of your body and the produce of your ground and the offspring of your beasts, the increase of your herd and the young of your flock.”
Every morning I get up in the morning and pray to God for Alex's very life, his health a uncomplicated birth.
I praise God for him! I praise God for bringing me through this pregnancy successfully with our lil bundle of joy at the end.
Battle Cry today!
Deut. 28:4 – “Blessed shall be the offspring of your body and the produce of your ground and the offspring of your beasts, the increase of your herd and the young of your flock.”
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