Standing in the Gap - Learning to be a Praying Woman

I am so blessed to report that Alex is 24 weeks, and 3 days today.

I felt him moving around there today good. And I just had to stop and thank Jesus. Stop and say thank you Jesus for this miracle child that he has given to my husband and I. 

Every morning, I wake up and pray for my husband, Alayna, Alex and my family. During this early morning time, I realize that this is what the bible talks about in Proverbs 31. The wife of noble character "rises while it is still night and gets food (spiritual) for her family. 

This entire year, this journey to Alexander has brought me closer to God. Matured me, and taught me what it means to be a wife, to be a mother, to cling to God's unchanging hand. 

I named this post standing in the gap, because I feel like my spiritual gift is prayer. God has shown me whatever I bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever I loose on earth will be loosed in heaven. God has shown me he is faithful, he CARES for me, for my husband and my children. 

I committ my heart to God and being a faithful steward over all that he has blessed me with. 

Praise God. 

Battle Cry for today:

Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, -Ephesians 3:20-

Thyroid Disease

Had so much fun with my lil girl yesterday.  We went to go and see Disney on Ice, she loved it almost as much as I did. Unfortunately today I have the sniffles and am extremely exhausted because there were like thousands of people there. Walking with my lil tummy bouncing up and down and a toddler holding on to me and nachos and drinks balanced on the other arm was like whew.

What i wish people knew about thyroid disease is just because you get on a pill doesn't mean that the exhaustion goes away completely. It just allows you to function a little bit better. I remember when i was younger one of my cousins commented Kiki don't run no where. At the time I  was like eh, oh well no i don't. .Fast forward a couple of years. I am in high school, working, after school most days and on the weekend. I remember sitting at the table with my friends, and looking over at the shiney young ladies who seemed to be bouncing off of their skin in excitement of another school day. At first I thought that maybe I felt so removed from them because I worked like most of my friends and maybe we were not on the same wavelenght.

As I reflect back on it now. I realize that I was envious of those young ladies, not because of hair or cuter clothes etc etc. I was envious because they had energy and I did not. I used to be tired at the start of the day through the day. Gym was a special kind of torture at the end of which after the shower I wanted to stretch out on on of the benches and go to sleep, not take a nap, go to sleep.

I am at a point now where I am taking control of my condition. Got the best meds, eating better, exercising and in general doing everything I can to make sure that my thyroid does not interfer with my life.

Yes I have thyroid disease, yes I get tired quicker than most. Yes i have to work out twice that of a normal person and yes I have other associated stuff like the metabolic disorder. But I have something else to, the will to not let it overtake me.

23 weeks and five days

Our little one is kicking kicking kicking.

I am so blessed to be pregnant, so blessed for a child to born unto me. Everyday I am still at it praying for a healthy and happy Alexander.

Praying over Alayna! She is my lil heart. Everyday I pray over her safety, over her learning, and her growth and character as a woman.

Praying for my marriage. Thanking God for this awesome man of God in my life, and praying to grow deeper into a proverbs 31 woman.

Of all the storms I have been through in my life, it is so wonderful to know, that whatever trials may come God is with me. I don't have to scream and shout and shed as many tears. Because God is with me, he comforts me. Reminds me that I will not be broken, I will not be shattered but I will be sustained by His might and power and glory. God quiets the child in me and build the woman.

Every smile isn't a yeaaaahhh smile, some smiles are just Thank You Jesus for not forgetting about me, for sustaining me in the storms of life.

Battle Cry for Today
Isaiah 41:10  fear not, for I am with you;  be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you,  I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Psalms 46:10

In my prayer time in the early morning this morning. I had a lot of things to take to God. Things that were on on my heart. Sometimes, it is not good to talk to other people about the things of your heart. Sometimes the only person who you need tell is God. I heard the Father say before I even got real good into my prayer, "Be Still and Know That I AM God".... It quieted my soul.

Pregnancy is going fine, I have had a migraine though for 5 days from a sinus infection. A migraine to the point, I was throwing up and it was waking me out of sleep. But I went to the dr got a Zpack and things are doing better.

The battle cry for today is:
Be still and know that I am God.