Prayer Always Praying

I am 15 weeks and about 4 days.
I am 216lbs there abouts.
Food intake better than first pregnancy, can get better though.
Exercise - nil, but not due to a lack of trying to go on my part.
Thyroid- functioning smoothly per blood work
How I actually feel- Exhausted. God I am so tired.

First off let me just say God is continually blessing this pregnancy. The doctors are constantly poking me to make sure that the blood work is normal, that the thyroid is in check, etc etc. So in addition to the obgyn regular appt, I got all these in addition. But as I would go to a million appointments for my child. For my children, my husband, my mother, my family.

Still everyday around 4am, I wake up and pray for the baby. The prayers used to last all of five minutes, but now they have evolved to include my family, my husband, my friends, whatever God lays on my heart, praise and sometimes even meditation. I love this prayer time. I come prepared for the day. I come ready to do battle in the spirit to keep my calm, to keep my eyes focused on the Lord and not the things of this world.

I find myself throughout the day praying, I pray in the car, I pray in the bathroom stall, I pray at lunch. I am reminded of 1 Thessalonians 5:7, the bible says here pray without ceasing giving all praise to God. I am doing that constantly. I know now that in order to really truly deal with life, to be inthe prescence of God you need to stay 'prayed up' as we say now. You need to be like Daniel and go to the upper room and pray, give thanks, pray for a covering over your family, rebuke the devils plans. I suppose God is showing me my gift is intercession. I believe so much in prayer that every Sunday at church I wold write on my prayer request, "Lord please bless me to conceive and deliver a healthy happy baby". Every Sunday without fail this was my prayer and the group over the prayer ministry would pray that prayer collectively, all the while I was praying it individually.

I prayed for this child, on the way to work, literally crying tears streaming down my face. Crying out to the Lord for this gift. Wipe my face, straighten up go into work. cry in the bathroom run cold water on my face go to work. Prayer works. God is here, he is close to me. The bible says draw closer to God and he will draw closer to you. I pray to always be in pursuit of the Lord. To always want to do his will on this earth, and to always be in the spirit enough where I can see clearly those things that are and are not of the Lord.

It isn't any one else's conduct that should make me respond in a certain way. It is my fear awe, respect and reverence for the Lord God Almighty and for his Son Jesus Christ that should direct my responses, my conduct and my decision making. God is with every one, believer and non believer even unto the end of the age. That is his promise it is in his word.

When I find myself in difficult situations, I remember Isaiah 58:8 "The Lord will be your rear guard"
Psalms 118:6 The Lord is with me, what can man do to me.
That is why I pray alone in the morning and again with my husband before work. The word says in Leviticus, That one can put 1000 demons to flight but two can put 10000 demons to flight.
2 Samuel 22:3-4" My God, is my rock in whom I take refuge, my shield and the horn of my salvation. He is my stronghold, my refuge and my savior from violent people you save me. I called to the Lord who is worthy of my praise and have been saved from my enemies.

I leave all of these scriptures, these battle cries with you, to encourage anyone who reads this (if i ever make it public...haha) That the Lord God is with you, He hears you, I know cause he heard and he hears me.

One last battle cry: 1st Peter 5:7 Cast all of your anxiety on Him for he cares for you. He cares for me, he cares he cares he cares.

Praise God for this child growing in my womb. Praise God for growing in my walk with Jesus. My prayer is that whoever reads this will be encouraged, blessed and remembers that the Lord is with you even to the end of the age.

Jesus

Today has been a horrible day. Today I have learned what it means to be in the palm of his hand.

When trouble comes and when you think that you know what is solid. You learn what is not. God is...Here he is. God stands.

The lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

Getting My Sexy Back

This is just a short quick post about something I have found to be very true the older you get married or not.

Sometimes you just have to get your sexy back. I remember a time where I didn't wear anything cotton to bed. I spent hours at Sephora and other make up spots trying new eye shadows, and smelling perfumes that I like.

I have not done that in a minute. None of that. The grind, wifedom, motherhood, running the house. Before you know it you in a Army of one t-shirt, some sweats and a pair of running shoes going out the house to actually have/start your day..... First of all I have never been in the army, second of all when did this become appropriate gear to go out in.

Gotta get my sexy back post haste. I don't care if I am pregnant. I am going to be one cute or at least cuter Keda.

There is no reason to stop growing in my woman hood simply because life is exhausting the hell out of me. Like everything else i am going to have to push through.

Blessed, Halloween, and My thoughts in General

Hey it's been a minute but I am back and thanking God for his many blessings.

12 weeks, and like 5 days. Got a call from the geneticist office.
The baby has no problems of any kind. She is happy and healthy and whole. I thank god for this news. I wake up in the morning and pray for Amayah, or Amaya however i decide to spell it, every day of the week. Four am I am on the couch thanking and praising God for this miracle. It is a miracle to conceive and carry a child.

So that news today was wonderful. I rushed home and got the kids ready for Halloween, I had a Strawberry shortcake and another outfit for our wonderful little foster son.  both turned out to be the cutest outfits ever. Like seriously cute.

We went to about 10 houses and took pics before the rain started so we turned around and come on in. I was so thankful that the kids got a chance to go out and experience everyone else outside. For our daughter this was the first Halloween that she was really into and I was thrilled watching her be thrilled.

I am so thankful for this life i am living. I don't know what to do. I feel like I am living my dream out for real.

I am not really worried about anything but maybe my uncle being a hard head and not going to get his pacemaker in. But considering his will is just as strong if not stronger than mine, I guess I will just have to pray for him and keep it moving. I am not sure what else to do in this situation.

This journey has been so long adn there is still a long way to go but I just want to take this moment and THANK GOD.... I WANT TO THANK GOD... FOR HIS BLESSING ARE AWESOME

Battle call for today:
The blessing of the Lord cometh and they bringeth no sorrow

Thanking God.

Hey it's been a minute but I am back and thanking God for his many blessings.

12 weeks, and like 5 days. Got a call from the geneticist office.
The baby has no problems of any kind. She is happy and healthy and whole. I thank god for this news. I wake up in the morning and pray for Amayah, or Amaya however i decide to spell it, every day of the week. Four am I am on the couch thanking and praising God for this miracle. It is a miracle to conceive and carry a child.

So that news today was wonderful. I rushed home and got the kids ready for Halloween, I had a Strawberry shortcake and another outfit for our wonderful little foster son.  both turned out to be the cutest outfits ever. Like seriously cute.

We went to about 10 houses and took pics before the rain started so we turned around and come on in. I was so thankful that the kids got a chance to go out and experience everyone else outside. For our daughter this was the first Halloween that she was really into and I was thrilled watching her be thrilled.

I am so thankful for this life i am living. I don't know what to do. I feel like I am living my dream out for real.

I am not really worried about anything but maybe my uncle being a hard head and not going to get his pacemaker in. But considering his will is just as strong if not stronger than mine, I guess I will just have to pray for him and keep it moving. I am not sure what else to do in this situation.

This journey has been so long adn there is still a long way to go but I just want to take this moment and THANK GOD.... I WANT TO THANK GOD... FOR HIS BLESSING ARE AWESOME

Battle call for today:
The blessing of the Lord cometh and they bringeth no sorrow